Hello,
I’m so sorry for being gone for so long and not explaining myself. Kind of embarrassing because my last post was about potentially posting every day
Big wiff 😣
I was really excited to make content with that girl, in fact I arrived at the train station ready to go an entire day early 😝 I also shaved a day early so the next day I was covered in razor bumps and the anxiety I already had just made me cancel because I didn’t wanna make content with razor bumps or show up and meet someone with them and then go oh hey I have herpes (she already knew ahead but still i hope you can understand)
After that a few weeks ago I had someone who follows me show up to the place I live. First of all I’m okay, and there’s cameras and security in my building. But he showed up 4 times in one day, on camera. He buzzed me twice and when I answered the last time he asked me to meet him for dinner. I know I haven’t been the best at hiding my privacy, it’s something I regret a lot and I know I’m partly to blame for that incident. But I hope you guys understand how that’s very scary for someone to experience. My home is my safe place, and I promise to do better at protecting my privacy. But it’s my place to call home and if I wanted you to be here I would ask you to. But I also know it’s my fault, no one is to blame here but me.
I didn’t wanna leave the house or do anything for a while, I’ve been feeling at rock bottom but I thought I was going to come back to a lot of angry messages, messages about me not posting enough, being a bad person and letting people down. And I didn’t have a single one
The only messages I have are from people who wanna make sure I’m doing okay, who wanna see how I’m doing. I just wanna say thank you so fuckingg much. You guys have no idea how those messages make me feel. Sometimes its hard for me to find any value in myself and reading those messages made me feel so loved. I m trying to get better at taking care of myself and giving myself that love you all give me. I love you all so much <3
