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Update hiii After a few weeks of trying to get my brain to stop thinking the worst about everything I’m starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel I’m really sorry for not posting like I said I would, holiday times bring back a lot of hard memories for people to deal with me included and I think they hit me harder than I thought this year. I usually fall back into depression around Christmas but I’m hoping that cleaning my place, and working on content will help keep it away I didn’t end up making content with that girl and every guy I talk to about making content sounds like a kid going to the candy shop for the first time “idk if that makes sense” Like I’ll match with guys on dating sites and they wanna know if I wanna see photos of their dick, what my kinks are, and those conversations are more of a turn off for me now because I just wanna have a normal conversation getting to know someone Just because I make porn doesn’t mean I breath eat sleep porn making :) it’s not the only thing I wanna talk about and when I’m getting to know someone I wanna know them not their dick But I’ve had no luck where I live meeting up with people and the thought of trying to is starting to give me anxiety cause something always goes wrong Right now I’m really excited for new world. When I first started posting I was so excited to share everything with you guys I think deep down I thought sharing everything about myself would attract someone to me so I wouldn’t be alone but I guess that plan backfired hard I hope I’m excited to make content and stuff but right now it’s hard for my brain to feel confident when I’m always alone and that’s something I can’t change or at least don’t have energy to keep trying to right now The things that help me feel better each day is hearing my friends voices online when we play that makes me feel surrounded by people, I love it when we’re having fun cause I’m done with stress and angry people It cut off the rest of my message but I just wanted you to know I hope you’re doi

Published: October 2nd 2022, 3:46:30 pm

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Update hiii After a few weeks of trying to get my brain to stop thinking the worst about everything I’m starting to see a light at the end of the tunnel I’m really sorry for not posting like I said I would, holiday times bring back a lot of hard memories for people to deal with me included and I think they hit me harder than I thought this year. I usually fall back into depression around Christmas but I’m hoping that cleaning my place, and working on content will help keep it away I didn’t end up making content with that girl and every guy I talk to about making content sounds like a kid going to the candy shop for the first time “idk if that makes sense” Like I’ll match with guys on dating sites and they wanna know if I wanna see photos of their dick, what my kinks are, and those conversations are more of a turn off for me now because I just wanna have a normal conversation getting to know someone Just because I make porn doesn’t mean I breath eat sleep porn making :) it’s not the only thing I wanna talk about and when I’m getting to know someone I wanna know them not their dick But I’ve had no luck where I live meeting up with people and the thought of trying to is starting to give me anxiety cause something always goes wrong Right now I’m really excited for new world. When I first started posting I was so excited to share everything with you guys I think deep down I thought sharing everything about myself would attract someone to me so I wouldn’t be alone but I guess that plan backfired hard I hope I’m excited to make content and stuff but right now it’s hard for my brain to feel confident when I’m always alone and that’s something I can’t change or at least don’t have energy to keep trying to right now The things that help me feel better each day is hearing my friends voices online when we play that makes me feel surrounded by people, I love it when we’re having fun cause I’m done with stress and angry people It cut off the rest of my message but I just wanted you to know I hope you’re doi

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I am so sorry I’ve been quieter this past week and a bit, I’m gonna be brutally honest here, I’ve been so so unwell all whilst trying to get my girls better in time for Christmas, we’ve been wiped out by a winter flu for 2 weeks almost and in and out of hospital, it’s been so hard! It’s left me no time whatsoever to produce content - and if I’m being honest I’ve not thought about doing anything sexual as I’ve felt so shit and you all know I won’t put out fake content, if I’m not feeling it, I won’t film it. I’d rather produce high quality content whilst I’m giving and feeling 100% — and now being Christmas obviously I want to be with my family as the last couple of weeks have shown me how important family is, it’s so scary when you have little ones that get really unwell. I appreciate you patience so much, every lovely comment, message and review, it doesn’t go unnoticed. I will be giving away some free access tomorrow as you all know, but I’ll also be back in a couple of days posting content for you ❤️ have a wonderful Christmas and I’ll still be here on messages and posting some older content / spontaneous nude shots over Christmas ❤️🎄 xx

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Friends, if you miss me and don’t understand where I’ve gone: I have a lot of health problems with which I can’t work as usual, plus I can’t cope with my mental health too, so I’m resting now (resting with a temperature and sore throat lol) Also I am currently in the process of moving to another country and I am exhausted… I am going to change my mode of work here, I used to work on my content for 15 hours a day, every day and almost without days off for 2 years that I have been with you. I feel burned out, I'm afraid of losing you, but even more I'm afraid of losing myself. I'm not quitting, but now I'm putting myself and my health as a priority. I will post here less often, but I will continue to chat with you here as often as I can ❤️ I'm going to stop cosplaying for a while, but I have a some supply of cosplay content + I still have me (and I’m still pretty without any costumes!) I need to take time for myself and come back with fresh head! Love you all, take care of yourself ❤️ By the way, you can congratulate me, I finally put braces on! My mouth hurts as fuck 🥲

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