Just an update with how I’m doing :)
I promise I promise I’m trying to kick the part of my brain out that thinks the worst about everything. It hasn’t paid rent in years and it’s never done me any good.
I wish being happy was as easy as waking up and focusing on all the good things in life, but I feel like I have this part of my brain that’s always ready to be sad. Like I have buckets of tears waiting at all times for the slightest thing to happen and I know it’s pathetic and I know I wanna be more strong minded but it’s a lot easier said then done in my experience,.
I get so easily frustrated with myself and I wonder why I don’t have patience for other people ;) so I gotta work on being more patient
And I need to stop trying to wip out 10/10 perfect porn where I think I look perfect and need makeup to feel beautiful
All of the photos I took this morning I’m not wearing makeup, my nails aren’t perfect, but my room is clean and I feel so good. And there’s tons of creators people can support who like to wear makeup and get all dressed up to the 10, I dont mind that sometimes but I need to just be myself more often because that’s what makes me feel beautiful and happy :)
I need to get back to cooking more too but I’m doing really good despite my brain trying to self sabotage itself 😁
I hope you’re all doing well and you should tell me one thing you’re excited for this year :)
Published: May 1st 2023, 3:54:34 pm
Just an update with how I’m doing :)
I promise I promise I’m trying to kick the part of my brain out that thinks the worst about everything. It hasn’t paid rent in years and it’s never done me any good.
I wish being happy was as easy as waking up and focusing on all the good things in life, but I feel like I have this part of my brain that’s always ready to be sad. Like I have buckets of tears waiting at all times for the slightest thing to happen and I know it’s pathetic and I know I wanna be more strong minded but it’s a lot easier said then done in my experience,.
I get so easily frustrated with myself and I wonder why I don’t have patience for other people ;) so I gotta work on being more patient
And I need to stop trying to wip out 10/10 perfect porn where I think I look perfect and need makeup to feel beautiful
All of the photos I took this morning I’m not wearing makeup, my nails aren’t perfect, but my room is clean and I feel so good. And there’s tons of creators people can support who like to wear makeup and get all dressed up to the 10, I dont mind that sometimes but I need to just be myself more often because that’s what makes me feel beautiful and happy :)
I need to get back to cooking more too but I’m doing really good despite my brain trying to self sabotage itself 😁
I hope you’re all doing well and you should tell me one thing you’re excited for this year :)