taya love

Chapter 1

Published: August 29th 2022, 5:47:40 am

Polyamour

Well, I'm not in a relationship now. And I've been out of them for 2 years.  My last love story happened here in Zaporizhzhya. I was 35, he was 20))) But that was beautiful and romantic. I'll tell you about my brightest romantic affairs in the following  Chapters, dear)😘

So for truly to be called polyamorous I need to create my gang))) That's what I'm basically doing now looking for friends all over Ukraine.

The thing is that I don't enjoy common Sех that much 🤷 I need Love, Tantra, Thrill... So usually there's simply not enough of sexual erousal for me. The thing is that I don't enjoy common Sех that much 🤷 I need Love, Tantra, Thrill... So usually there's simply not enough of sexual erousal for me. The thing is that I don't enjoy common Sех that much 🤷 I need Love, Tantra, Thrill... So usually there's simply not enough of sexual erousal for me. The thing is that I don't enjoy common Sех that much 🤷 I need Love, Tantra, Thrill... So usually there's simply not enough of sexual erousal for me. 

I told you before, out of approximately 150 lovers only 1 was satisfactory enough for me. And I'm not gonna wait for another Prince to come. I need to figure it out how my Body and Psyche works, to gain control of my own Sexuality.

So all my stories are not a rumour or saucy content, but analyses and Progress diary.

I'll start with recent events. Coz there were unexpectedly many emotions and insights👌I'll start with recent events. Coz there were unexpectedly many emotions and insights👌

1.1

Massage workshop. 

I went there in mixed feelings. A thought that I gotta move out really troubled me, but Kiev gave a boost of energy.
When I got to Zhitomir I was surprised to see so few people (it started on Independence Day and we expected xtra attacks that day so mo wonder): there were 5 older men and me). And I came there for knowledge not for flirt, so I acted more like a lil bro. It took time for me to get more comfortable and accepting attention and presents. One of the gentleman was a successful masseur from Lviv. But he had troubles in his intimate life: married for 25 years, no love, rare sex, he doesn't commit adultery, but his overwhelming sexual energy really troubles him coz he thinks about it too much, looking for opportunities but not having experience he screws them.
Since I was the only girl + Tantra (he is into all kinds of practices looking for relief of sexual tension) he got interested.
So when I decided to sleep in the hay on the attic he decided to join. We had a long, sincere conversation and he got overly excited (trust me, I was just talking, it's his inner urge). He offered to pay for a session, here and now, but it was way too late and he was too hectic for Tantra).
So I became a surrogate partner for him, a 'model of a woman'))) I just reacted on what he was doing and gave sincere reaction. He was rushing. Gave me a quick awkward kiss and immediately tried to touch my crotch. 🙈 It wasn't sexy at all. I asked him to slow down and to activate more social erogenous zones. He's a masseur but seemed like he forgot all the skills because of passion. Luckily he moved to legs and feet. 😎 Feet licking gave me the most of erousal I got that night (like 30% strong) so wanting to come to some resolution I gave him permission to get to sex. But he got so overly excited that his blood pressure went sky high and he got horrible headache (such state is a stroke risk). So I gave him a head massage and comforting words. Finally we could go to sleep.

This episode gave me some nasty feelings. I don't like to be wanted just as a body, I felt like I had been at work against my will. He tried to be nice, brought me breakfast. But being a hectic person he rushed to new experience. He wasn't really attracted to me as a person and it added to bad feelings about the night.
I think he sensed it. Coz he found a way to thank me. It's him who presented me my 'massage Oscar'🥰🔥 which costs like my session (about 100$)

We'll continue communication in Lviv. I like him as a person and my knowledge and experience can be useful to him👌

Conclusion: to avoid bad feelings I need to  define the energy balance beforehand.