Published: October 30th 2024, 11:31:34 pm
EDIT 2:
This diagnosis stuff is pretty complicated it seems. I talked to a "Psych NP" but they could not prescribe me normal ADHD medications (stimulants). I have to talk to someone else.
Because my insurance provider is awful, I've had to pay for these things out of pocket. I'm kind of burning money (hundreds of $$) as I search for the right option to actually get some help.
I found a place that says they do offer ADHD testing and a place that says they will help me with medication once I have the test results.
So, unfortunately I have to finish this animation without meds. We'll see what happens. I can't make promises on exactly when anymore, it's just embarrassing.
EDIT:
It's still proceeding but slower than I wanted to, and it's really hard to keep at it because I feel completely burned out. The blender project is really sluggish because of all the data in it so every single minute thing I try to adjust is extremely tedious. My body keeps screaming to go to sleep at all hours of the day. My dayjob has annoying deadlines this week and the people I'm managing are being terrible at their job (requiring me to constantly step in for them) and so my brain is just completely fried because I can't catch a break.
On that subject, I learned it's possible I have severe ADHD which is why it is so difficult for me to perform work without burning out every couple hours.
I'm desperately trying to contact a psychiatrist for medication, but they're slow to respond. If I had something like Adderall it would be so easy for me to lock in and finish the rest of these tasks. And also, I could maybe go back to releasing animations every month if it wasn't so difficult for me to sustain the effort.
If it doesn't happen this week, I really apologize. I do have some bonus animations ready also so everyone will get some extra treats.
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Hi all,
I've calculated how many work-hours are needed to complete the animation, and I'm comfortable saying that I can release the new animation VERY SOON. I'm trying for this Friday, but you know I'm bad at promises.
The sound is basically done for all 10 minutes. I just need to do things like clean up hand/finger positions, eye directions, and fill in some last secondary animations (some of the sex will have spectators :D)
The render shouldn't be too bad also because Blender 4.2 does better on the render speed than older ones, and I can render a test preview nowadays which is faster and still gives me a reasonably accurate look. It shouldn't be more than a 48hr render job once I am done.