Well, here we are. The end of another year.
A time for refl..
Published: December 31st 2023, 3:55:53 pm
Well, here we are. The end of another year.
A time for reflection, regrets and resolutions. A time for the best of intentions and a hopeful future. A time for firework induced panic attacks, but most of all, a time where the bloody nightmare that is the festive season is finally gone and I can start to relax a little.
It's kind of insane to compare myself now to myself a year ago, in fact I feel genuine dysphoria reflecting that far into the past. I do not know that person any more, yet they were me. I've changed so much, in many ways I've come a long way; I've grown my page, learned new skills, made some friends, started getting help for my trauma. In other ways though, I'm way worse off. My actual ability to function day to day is not great, I see myself doing things in old tiktok videos that the thought of doing now makes me physically sick, like talking to strangers. I don't know if I've gotten worse mentally or if I'm just kinder to myself so I don't force so much upon myself... but I'm definitely less out there now. I think I am more stable, less ups and downs, but I am so aware of how much I struggle and I still constantly shame myself for it.
It's so frustrating, there's so much I want to do but I just can't. My brain won't let me.
So that is want I am resolved to fix in the new year! I AM GOING TO GET BETTER!! I'm sick of lying in bed faced away from my window trying to ignore the life I am missing, I want to live!
I want to thank every one of you, I want to thank anyone who's ever subbed really but those of you who are here now will have to do, THANK YOU
I love you all and I'm where and who I am now thanks to you and your support so honestly and truly, thank you! I have lots of ideas to excite and entice you with in the new year and lots of projects on the go for you guys so I hope you decide it's worth sticking around for that :3
I know it's not anything world shattering but I hope you enjoy this picture of my cum-fillled pussy, you can imagine what it would be like to leave me like this as you phase into the next year, I think that would be cool :3
Love you xoxo