Guys, I think I lost some weight 😭… or is it just me? I was really anxious last week so I barely had appetite to eat or even drink anything, this week I am finally cooking full meals for myself again so hopefully I gain some of it back, and have enough strength for the gym!! I’ve been so anxious/sad because I’ve been going thru some big life/identity changes lately, I think this happens every month, but this time has been especially heavy and I know it’s because it’s time to stop running away from myself. Now that I’m 30, I want to stop being afraid + trust myself + go for all my big scary dreams, but the weight of society and expectations and fear of failure is soooo crippling. I’m also learning how to really sit with myself in silence to allow space for my own thoughts to flow, to learn to trust myself + honor my emotions, instead of constantly searching for validation from others, social media; doomscrolling/consuming content/being “productive”. I’m learning how to love and validate myself by just existing and I never did that before so it’s been really hard and painful. Also maybe I can comfort anyone else that is also going through something similar right now to let you know that you’re not alone, and you’re not the only one that’s suffering now, if you’re reading this I hope you feel less alone 🩶
