
I'm finally starting to come down a bit from how hard this last month has been for me. Here's a small round-up of stuff that has been going on.
Starting my new job has been HARD for me, both physically and mentally. I mean coming home crying and not being able to get sleep from the lingering physical pain. I'm trying really hard to learn and to get better at what I do, but since it's commission based, I have not made very much money yetโas in $200 for August as a whole. To be fair, I was out for a full week because I got my first bee sting and found out that I'm severely allergic. I could do nothing but sleep while getting through that. Then I had a car accident, where someone tried to turn left through an intersection from the right lane and I wasn't able to avoid getting hit. The aftermath of that has been an absolute shit show. Right now, I'm dealing with the fact that I've been having a really bad stomach flu for the last week and just trying to work through that even though I haven't been able to eat or sleep properly since last Friday. Though, I'm still having to do work on my apartment, like emptying out the entire kitchen (all cupboards, moving the fridge and stove, all of it) to do a pest treatment to try to deal with this INSANE roach infestation in my apartment. As well as a whole lot of personal shit I don't want to get into. I've been so overwhelmed and stressed out that I've been having involuntary naps anytime I'm home, making me lose a few hours I needed to get things done.
I just changed to part-time with my job, so that I have two days a week to focus on getting my fucking life sorted, and also to do my online work because I am absolutely terrified about my income. I can't "just switch jobs" because I was trying to find something since February and this is the ONLY job that responded. I like most of the people I work with and there's potential for growth, but in the meantime, I'm not able to afford food or rent. I'm still figuring out my vehicle situation, but her insurance FINALLY established