I know I don't post much about my personal life here, because I mostly keep that to Twitter. Though I do want to apologize. I knew that the holidays would be really rough on me because it's only my second time going through them since losing my partner. I underestimated just how badly it would affect me though. I haven't stopped going through my grief, I've just gotten a lot better at hiding it. I was basically barely able to function for about two months, and I've been falling behind with just about everything in my life. Christmas and New Years hit the hardest. It's really hard to lose the person you love most, your closest family and greatest friend, and keep moving when you know you'll never get to have the life with them that you both so desperately wanted. I'm still healing. I'm also still going to be slow with messages because it is really hard for me to be social when I'm not actually personally okay.
But I also didn't even clear a third of my financial stability goal. I know that's my fault for shutting down with depression. I'm going to have to find a way to make enough to afford to cover my bills next month. I have a surgery later this month but I'm going to try to make as much content as I can beforehand so that I can start scheduling it out again. I'll let you know my other plans once I know that they're able to happen.
Published: January 4th 2023, 8:40:45 pm
I know I don't post much about my personal life here, because I mostly keep that to Twitter. Though I do want to apologize. I knew that the holidays would be really rough on me because it's only my second time going through them since losing my partner. I underestimated just how badly it would affect me though. I haven't stopped going through my grief, I've just gotten a lot better at hiding it. I was basically barely able to function for about two months, and I've been falling behind with just about everything in my life. Christmas and New Years hit the hardest. It's really hard to lose the person you love most, your closest family and greatest friend, and keep moving when you know you'll never get to have the life with them that you both so desperately wanted. I'm still healing. I'm also still going to be slow with messages because it is really hard for me to be social when I'm not actually personally okay.
But I also didn't even clear a third of my financial stability goal. I know that's my fault for shutting down with depression. I'm going to have to find a way to make enough to afford to cover my bills next month. I have a surgery later this month but I'm going to try to make as much content as I can beforehand so that I can start scheduling it out again. I'll let you know my other plans once I know that they're able to happen.