We were at #30, then I got sick and couldn't stream daily like I had planned, I'm now at #184 I can honestly say I'm never doing this again if this is going to be a yearly thing. It's really not good for the mental at all, I said it on stream but it made me feel like I didn't do good enough for my community. I have a lot of stresses both on and off stream and was excited for top #30. But I do appreciate everyone encouraging me and supporting me till the very end of this. I think the most egregious thing for me was that at first the list wasn't in my face about my number. But one of the updates changed it so that the number would always be at the top right corner of my screen and that's what absolutely ruined this for me, like someone dangling keys in front of my face mocking me. Either way, I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday, I don't think I'll be streaming today unless my mental picks up. I can't promise anything, thank you all for the amazing support, this journey has been a hard and fun one so far and I hope next year will be a way better year for everyone. I appreciate you all so so much and hope you all stick around for the years to cum! - MamaBlu
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