boundbyflames

Pt 2 writing: i am healthier than i've been for years, i am vulnerable and motivated. Stressful at times, incredibly challenging emotionally... and i've never been so exposed - and held for that. i'm letting go. Which is exactly what a slave is meant to do (from my personal perspective on myself - i know opinions differ). i'm responding to everything, i'm sharing everything, i'm completely open and vulnerable. i'm changing my responses, bodily, psychologically, audibly, visibly. i'm being willingly conditioned and unknowingly at times - by A/all of U/us. It is a funny thing... to change under Ownership and yet to become more and more exposed for exactly what you are. Changing and yet more myself than ever. Truly my 'self' is becomming more and more Theirs. Intrinsically, not as an act or roleplay. The Collar There is so much to write about. Such deep feelings, so many levels i could go into, and of course a lot has happened since my last writing about service. my collaring being an obvious hugely important change. However... i can't force that to words. i struggle to even for my Owners. They look to me and ask me how my connection to my beautiful collar feels... and i struggle. It's not that i'm hiding anything, but that it's too scary to feel - incase i have it taken away somehow. People cry when they receive things that mean a lot at times. But in a way... it feels too much to show. Like a flame so hot it burns cold, like invisible steam. i try to unfold just how much the collar and Ownership feels to me, and i can't connect to give that to Them. It's sad really, i think it is self protection - a struggle to feel happy to the true extend of that very positive feeling, as it's scary to feel that strongly. However i can connect to sadness. And i believe if They ever took my collar off for a moment, They would see just how deep those feelings truly run. my eyes can water and my heartbeat quicken just beginning to let that thought in. That i can connect to. That is the coin's other side of all it brings and feel

Published: January 28th 2023, 1:33:01 pm

Pt 2 writing: i am healthier than i've been for years, i am vulnerable and motivated. Stressful at times, incredibly challenging emotionally... and i've never been so exposed - and held for that. i'm letting go. Which is exactly what a slave is meant to do (from my personal perspective on myself - i know opinions differ). i'm responding to everything, i'm sharing everything, i'm completely open and vulnerable. i'm changing my responses, bodily, psychologically, audibly, visibly. i'm being willingly conditioned and unknowingly at times - by A/all of U/us. It is a funny thing... to change under Ownership and yet to become more and more exposed for exactly what you are. Changing and yet more myself than ever. Truly my 'self' is becomming more and more Theirs. Intrinsically, not as an act or roleplay. The Collar There is so much to write about. Such deep feelings, so many levels i could go into, and of course a lot has happened since my last writing about service. my collaring being an obvious hugely important change. However... i can't force that to words. i struggle to even for my Owners. They look to me and ask me how my connection to my beautiful collar feels... and i struggle. It's not that i'm hiding anything, but that it's too scary to feel - incase i have it taken away somehow. People cry when they receive things that mean a lot at times. But in a way... it feels too much to show. Like a flame so hot it burns cold, like invisible steam. i try to unfold just how much the collar and Ownership feels to me, and i can't connect to give that to Them. It's sad really, i think it is self protection - a struggle to feel happy to the true extend of that very positive feeling, as it's scary to feel that strongly. However i can connect to sadness. And i believe if They ever took my collar off for a moment, They would see just how deep those feelings truly run. my eyes can water and my heartbeat quicken just beginning to let that thought in. That i can connect to. That is the coin's other side of all it brings and feel

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pt 3 writing: That is the coin's other side of all it brings and feels in being locked on my neck. The level of despair, loss and heart break of having it taken off is the opposite to my feelings having it on. i can feel myself drawing this writing to an end as my words become stiffer again. i know there are enormous aspects of my service i'm leaving out of detail and people are left with little idea of what service for me really looks like, but here doesn't feel right to write about that today. However, i am meant to try to post every day and i am often left without ideas if i have no content of recent use or sessions, so i will more regularly post day-to-day pictures of service which will hopefully give a bigger picture and probably more real than just pictures of sexual/pain use. Several months ago towards the very beginning of things, my Owners gave me words to recite, as i do every day and when They ask. i'm a slave. i've chosen to serve. i've given away my rights to show that i am Theirs and Theirs alone. i offer myself completely and without limits - may that be pain, degradation or sexual use. my role is not to question but to obey, to trust in my Owners and Their plans for me. i'm Their property to be moulded and changed to Their liking. i give them all of me and embrace all parts of Them. i submit and worship Them freely. i serve with pride. Thank You Masters

Six months. — 03/08/23 — This Saturday will be six months collared, so I’ve been reflecting on my journey here and what I can do better going forward. First, being collared and owned by my Master means everything to me. I worked toward this collar for years, and I take it very seriously. This collar means… #journal #writing #fyp #slave #collared #master #masterslave #submissive #owned #collar #beer #septum #whore #slut #property #sweet

This was actually one of the very first tasks my master gave me when we started talking. We hadn’t met in person yet—it was just over Snapchat. This was my first encounter with pain, and back then, I got scared and even considered ending the relationship before it began. I completed the task, but afterward, I felt lost and confused, wondering why I had done it and why I felt the way I did. My master left me alone for a few days, and I honestly didn’t think he would reach out again after that night. But after four days, he texted me. After some conversation, flirting, and sweet talk, I decided to meet up with him. And now, here I am, over a year later, doing the same task, but for very different reasons than back then—and this time, it felt good. A year can change a person, and I can feel that I’m still growing and shaping myself to become my owner’s perfect pet. #bdsm #challenge #pain #degrading #kneeling #pasta #slut #slave #teen #whore #task #pet #submissive #sweden #usa #germany

Chained Jane The way she was perched with her limbs immobilized, leaving her completely at my mercy; damn, it’s so alluring! Definitely a motivator for the other job that I was forced to endure. Makes me wish I could live just educating my little dolls. Nevertheless, she was still unused to the experience, making her twirl and recoil uncomfortably as a natural reaction to the pain. Even while she was getting increasingly more wet in the process. A contradiction, as one would call it. This did inform me I’d have to practice more on her pain tolerance in the future, but what dominated my mind was how this was merely an appetizer. The full course meal was going to be later, yet I already had it right before my eyes. Her scrumptious body was essentially being prepared for me to devour later today, I just needed to finish that damn work first. Aah, but there she was, naked and breathing heavily; probably from the times she had cum during this whole process. I might have accidentally created a distraction, too. No matter, for the thought that was steadily in my mind was: "Once you are done, you will enjoy the things that make life worthwhile." It was enough of a motivator to make me push through all that kept me busy. #fyp #bdsm #slave #training #fuckdoll #spanking