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Another of my favs from the Kokoro set! Also life + work update :)

Published: May 6th 2020, 12:09:36 pm

Here's another Kokoro photo, because of its strappy bold design, I also wanted to create striking and strong shapes with my body. 

Yesterday we shot the Misty photoset! It's an outdoors shoot and we tried to pick a spot that would suit her and the Pokémon game aesthetic. We scouted in advance lots of places, we tried to find a quiet spot which was a bit hard, but in the end we found a place where there weren't many passerbys. I wish sometimes we had a third person as an assistant, for example it would have been great to have had someone as a lookout yesterday so my partner could just focus on taking photos. (There is a possibility I will have someone extra start helping me occasionally later this year for situations like this or as an extra pair of hands for shoots, but will need to see how things develop.) We are still learning more about outdoor shoots, but always fun to keep things fresh and keep improving! I can get easily bored of monotony, so that's also why I like trying out new things, I hope this keeps it exciting for you guys too! 

Originally I wanted to rent a really nice airbnb this month for shoots, but for now it looks like it won't happen due to the corona situation. A lot of my cosplays had been delayed as well because of corona, either the costume coming super slowly, being incomplete because it can't be produced due to materials not being produced/they can't work at the factory, or I can't go to the location for the shoot, so I hope you guys can understand my lack of cosplays in the last few months. However I started to get more of my costumes now and have some I can do at home, and am in the mood for more backdrop/indoor shoots again after doing quite a few outside or at locations. My next shoot will be Ishtar I think! I'm very excited for it and am going to go all out on trying to make my living room amazing for it.

On a personal level, I've been doing really well! The weather has been so great lately, though a bit dry for my poor garden, which I'm super grateful for. This whole year has been pretty great so far, ironically, I'm so used to stuff going badly in my personal life in the past, corona is like a small thing for me and doesn't really affect my mood. Ever since I've cut people out of my life who would bring me down or were a negative influence on me, I've been getting only better. I've been not depressed or anxious for so long now (not yet been a full year but closer to the end of this year if this keeps up, maybe I'll have a streak of consistent mental health and not having bad things happen!) , I see the world with new eyes haha. I feel like I'm living the life that I always dreamed of having as a kid, back then I wished I knew what stability and happiness would be like but had never experienced it. I think being able to compare to those times makes me even more grateful. Grateful to all of you especially for making this possible by supporting me! 

I'm still learning a lot about myself everyday and having reflective moments, but piece by piece, I'm undoing the trauma and learning to cope in healthy ways and becoming a stronger person for it. :D  I hope with my content I can give back to you! 

By the way random funny progress I've made, I'm having a much better body image, and I've finally realized how nice and big my boobs are consistently. I was so used to thinking I had small boobs and even would think about getting a boob job, I'm so glad I can cherish my body better now. I'm still learning more about intuitive eating as well and working on it, I think I'm getting better with that too! My satiety levels are further normalizing which I find so cool, I used to be able to eat so much and be hungry all the time, I could eat more than most of my male friends lol. But now I get full much faster and don't feel guilt about food as much. My main craving left is crisps (I was never allowed to eat them growing up amongst many other things and it's just one of the last things that I have to learn to not feel guilty about eating) but even that has gotten better, I have some crisps in the pantry and not actually eaten them yet xD If you known any good crisp brands in Europe tell me! I discovered burts chips recently and wow, their beef dripping crisps are next level. 

I miss the gym, but instead I got into yoga and am making a lot of progress with flexibility and mind muscle connection, so I'm grateful to have the chance to improve other things. I also get to talk to my friends more because they have more free time, so my social life is booming haha. I'm also reading a lot, on book 5 of Wheel of time. Have any of you read WOT? 

I feel worried for others who have it bad during these unprecedented times and are struggling, I pray that things will get better soon. I hope you are all doing ok and staying safe! 

Love you all,

Sylvia, your Virtual Geisha x