Published: July 6th 2019, 6:02:43 pm
Couple things here:
First thing, I want to be making better quality videos. I WANT to. Here are my reasonable excuses as to why I'm not...
I'm only one person. I don't have a boyfriend or feeder to film me walking around and at different angles and I don't have people I can film stuffings with. I have a nice camera and equipment that I bought with the money from my Patrons (I still can't believe how lucky I am) BUT I SUCKKKK at technology. I suck at it. I have absolutely no idea how to use my camera, transfer the video to a laptop, possibly even edit it, and then upload it to YouTube. No clue. I've tried to figure it out, I can't. And since nobody in my life knows about these videos, I can't ask anyone for help. I know how to use my phone to record and click 1 button to upload it, so that's what I do.
I never have privacy. Ever. When I do it's in a bathroom or while I happen to be in SOMEBODY'S house by myself for an hour. Without your own place, it's hard to buy things/food for a video, find a good comfy spot to film it, and then wait an hour for it to upload. Along with this too I'm busy with life! I have friends, I have family, it's summer, I'm doing stuff! Yeah I still eat like a fatass pig every fucking day but I'm usually with people & I don't film everything. Just because I didn't film myself SLEEPING for you guys doesn't mean i'm a vampire that doesn't sleep or some shit....
Sorry, I'm getting intense lol.
Anyways, I'm thinking of just deleting my Patreon. Apparently I'm not giving you guys good enough THANK YOU videos for your DONATIONS. The money has helped me SO FUCKING MUCH. Like I said i bought a camera that I hope to use one day, I go out to eat WHENEVER I want, I get pizzas like every day, I buy the entire junk food isle at the grocery store, I can buy myself new clothes since I grow out of mine often, it's a feedee's dream.
Lastly, I want to point out the not paying thing again. Last month (June) I didn't say anything about it and I didn't block anyone who undid their pledge on the last day. As a result, I lost almost $900, and about 25 Patrons. Today, the 6th of the month, I'm back up to almost all the money and Patrons I had just days before June 30th. People. Do. This. I don't CARE about the money, I'm not a greedy person and I have plenty to get me through the month. Its about ethics and morals. People doing this are stealing. It's gross for me to watch because I'm just so opposite. I would NEVER consider stealing from a store, cheating my way into a movie, pirating music online, etc. I don't like when people get away with stuff like this. Please, PLEASE just pay or unpledge for good.