Published: December 20th 2024, 10:59:38 am
Dear Patrons, it's been a year since the last update, and so many of you are still here. I don't know what I did to be deserving of your support... And, that's what makes the guilt so hard to bear. You all have been so inexplicably kind to me, and I've let you down. I'm truly sorry about it.
If I've been able to eat this year, it's because of you. And I will always remember that. Thank you.. Thank you truly.. You guys have been more understanding and supportive than most friends would be. And I will never be able to thank you enough with just words for that.
I know that mental health is used as an excuse for most things these days. But only people who deal with bad cases of it can truly understand what sort of hell that is. I've been dealing with the worst form of OCD, called Pure O. Anyone who knows anything about it knows what absolute hell that is.
It gets to a point where not many things matter in life when you're fighting your own mind every minute of every day. When you're living in constant fight or flight, with anxiety, stress and depression at extremes because of Pure O, not even worrying about where your next meal is going to come from matters.
I sincerely thank you for being so incomprehensibly kind to me. It's sincerely baffling how how people you've never met can be so kind, understanding and supportive towards you.
I'm on high dosages of medication now, I'm finally starting to feel better to a point where I can work hours on end. So I will release the episode in about 20 days. I will be able to release the episode by mid January.
For the kindness you've shown me, I should not let you down, I will not let you down. Thank you all a million times over sincerely.