Published: November 26th 2023, 6:18:47 am
Hi guys,
I wanted to write a proper apology to you all for not posting for the past few days.
TLDR:
I've not been very productive and life has been getting in the way, I'll write the mushy stuff on down but for those who are just here for the news: I'll focus on recording a new asmr using the binaural mic and get it out to you guys either Sunday or Monday, and I'll also work on recording an exclusive for $15+ tiers. I still need to figure out the mic settings for it to sound the best, so it may take some time. I just ask you to be patient and give feedback once I post them :)
For those who want to read the mushy stuff:
Thanksgiving is always a pretty sad time of year for me. I haven't been home to see family for the holidays in 4 years so it really sucks. I came to realize you kinda take those holidays with family you have as a child for granted, because its something I've missed as I've gotten older. I don't rly have a close bond with my parents anymore so it feels like I don't have much of a place to go. Part of the reason why I grind so hard to make content and stuff is because you guys are kinda my happy place. I like making people happy and feeling like I'm doing something good. But I also don't feel like I have anybody close to me for times like this. It sounds sad and kinda pathetic but I end up spending the holidays alone which takes a big hit to my mental health. I've always been a bit awkward and bad at making friends and I'm not very confident to go out to community events either. I think COVID messed a lot of people up in this way where people feel like its hard to get back out there, and I don't really know how to overcome it. Talking to people online only goes so far so it gets hard. So if you were wondering why the lack of posts was, I guess that's just my general feelings and why things have been the way they are. Probably once the holidays are over I'll feel better, its just a seasonal winter thing when it gets dark early and it feels more lonely. I don't want you guys to worry about me, because things are fine. I won't do anything stupid. It's just a tough time to get through for a lot of people, and I know some of you are probably struggling with similar things. I didn't want to leave anyone in the dark or have you thinking I'm abandoning you guys.
I truly do love and appreciate you guys for all of your support and how you've given me a chance <3 I never really expected to get anywhere with anything I do, so I'm very grateful.