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Published: August 31st 2020, 8:03:18 pm

hi. As you may know the last few months have been a new kind of challenging for me. An old abuse case that I had resolved for myself as a victim has new victims which means I'm often recounting the abuse and revisiting the trauma while building a case for all of us to stop the perpetration.

One way I've chosen to process things in this decade of my life is through videos so during these months I spent countless hours researching and writing an episode of Sexplanations about secondary victimization -- the behaviors and attitudes of responders that are insensitive and or victim-blaming which traumatize victims of abuse further. I wasn't able to finish it or get it out into the world because of the emotional exhaustion so my friends helped me take a different approach. 

Richelle (from the Fears videos) set up a "studio" in her spare room. We wore masks. She purified the air with some fancy machine. I took my mask off, she asked a few questions to give direction to my catharsis then recorded the spill of emotions with her iPhone. I think we filmed for an hour. I cried for half. Then over multiple days I edited the footage on iMovie.

This is the cut as it is now. Some tears. Some anger. Some hope. I'll send a follow up post with a poll about how to move forward. I'd love your feedback. 

Curious, 

Lindsey