samantha_twin

But I swear... (Webtoon cover) [WIP + Update]

Published: January 18th 2023, 10:51:45 am

Hello! ^^

As some of you may know, I'll be posting my manga on Webtoon too, but the original cover I made didn't fit the suggested specs for Webtoon, so I'm making a new one that will easily fit there ^w^

I'll have more pages and another special drawing ready before the end of the month. I'm really sorry it took me so long to post something, but I didn't had a great  end of 2022, was sick, and still working on a few commissions that were delayed too because december was just awful for me. Anyway, I have been feeling really motivated lately, eager to continue working on my projects, but I can't deny sometimes I feel really sad. The thing is, that while sometimes I have these dark, depressive thoughts, I am sure I'm not the only one, and sometimes I feel inspired to draw or write about them, use those negative emotions on creating something, but at the same time I fear that I could help someone else's depression get worse, or just give them a bad day. But who knows, maybe they'll feel less lonely, maybe it could help others express their own emotions and experiences. 

I'd like to know your opinions, I want to make wholesome things that give hope and comfort, inevitably I'll have to talk about a few ugly things that are part of many trans people's lives, and I try not to be so pessimistic. I think most of you know that Avelyn was rejected and abused by her family, so she left, but she has a happy ending, and I want her to be happy as much as I want everyone else to be happy, but I'm also making another trans character she'll meet at some point, whose life is different from hers and has a very different outlook on life. 

I'm making her because I feel I need to, because I want to, and while she's not here to turn the story into something awful and sad (I want her to have a closure and, while she'll probably not turn into a happy ray of sunshine, she'll at least feel more at peace with things) she'll definitely have very negative emotions, most characteristically envy and grief over her lost childhood/adolescence. 

I'm not sure if that'd be okay. She'll be there and have her development, just don't know how much I should talk about her feelings, I don't feel uncomfortable writing her, but I worry, again, that she and her pessimism may have a negative impact on others, specially when they're just trying to read something wholesome ^^' I may make her own story in a different series so people who don't want to deal with these things can avoid them altogether (However Lynn will still be part of that)

Several months ago I made a similar question on Twitter and most people voted that I should talk about negative feelings too, but to this day I'm still a bit afraid of doing so, I'll eventually do, just don't know if I should make it more or less visible.

Thank you all for reading all of this ^^ I hope you're having a great day, and remember I love reading your comments! So please don't hesitate to express yourselves ^w^