samantha_twin

Bunny Lizzy + Music Chibies + More Emotes + Personal Update

Published: September 1st 2024, 8:31:20 am

Bunny Lizzy and the Hard-blushing Lynn emote are based on Channelcaststation's "Rabbit Hole" video.

And the band is complete! At least in chibies x) I'm also making these designs for the upcoming convention/expo I'll be attending in Mexico City to sell some merch. I'll have buttons, stickers, notepads, posters, postcards, and if everything goes right, keychains, standees, and a few other things x) I know a few of you have been waiting for keychains for some time, so I hope I can have some and ship them internationally.

With the expo, commissions, and all that, I've been working a lot, and honestly, I feel more productive than in the past. I'm still quite delayed, but I'm happy I think I'm doing so much because usually depression barely lets me do anything. Now, it's still not as much as I'd like to do, but hey, it's a lot better than usual xD I've been writing (chapters 5.5 and/or 6 will be ready this week, BTW), animating, and making progress on several drawings... And all that despite having another depressive episode last week because of an awful lot of dysphoria, followed by anxiety. But I'm managing.

If anything, the dysphoria/depression only made me feel more eager to draw and write Magnolia, a transgender woman who, unlike Lynn, started her transition a bit later in life, has lacked support, and doesn't quite "pass". She has a lot more negative thoughts I was afraid to show, but I think it's necessary, and, maybe a lot of people will find themselves in her. I mean, I definitely do.

Then the anxiety came and I'm afraid that, with how fast things move now, and with things like AI making it possible for anyone to generate images a lot faster while I spend so much time creating them, I'm falling behind. Also, at least someone has said they think I'm using AI and that made me a bit angry xD Because I spent so many years trying to get better at it and now some people think my drawings look like AI. If my drawings look too good, they must be AI. If the hands in my drawings look weird, that must be proof I use AI. Like, I don't need AI to draw ugly hands xD You can look at my older drawings, [1] [2] [3] the ones I posted waaay before the GenAI explosion and see that I've always been mediocre at drawing hands xD Now I think in a short time what I do will be of no value, but oh well, I can only continue and hope for the best. I wanted to change the world, but now I'm feeling useless x) Sorry. I should not talk a lot about my negative emotions.

In any case, I will continue trying for as long as I can, for these girls are the one thing keeping me alive x) They give me life, and I hope they've had at least a small positive impact in you as well.

Sorry I haven't messaged you or been too social, but with all of this I've found it a bit difficult ^^ But be sure that I read all of your comments and they really help me keep going, I appreciate them a lot!! <3