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Today, I Felt Like Practicing
Published: February 4th 2025, 4:23:17 pm
Yeah, as I wrote in the title...
I've been feeling a little rusty, and I thought having some practice might be good. The wall of high expectations behind my art has been growing, and I think a good way to balance this is by simply doing a few practice sessions on a daily basis while I keep working on my next poem. This way, at least I feel like I'm moving forward toward something meaningful while also not letting the fear of touching the canvas gain power.
I recognize that I have a responsibility to those of you who come here to see my process, and I can't just be absent, building up works that might take weeks to complete. I need to be present. So I'll try to keep up with these practice sessions and share them once a week in a post like this, with insights, plus the process video and PSD file.
At the moment, this feels like a lot of work considering my other responsibilities, but I do think it's fair. I also believe that dedicating one hour of my day to practice is not too much to ask. After all, this is what I'm good at, and besides, that's how I started my journey in the first place, so why not? Also, I felt a bit of envy toward Picasso and his reputation for painting at an incredible pace, sometimes even finishing one per day.
For today, I did some practice using pictures I found on Pinterest that I liked. Most of them were fun and quick, except for the setting with buildings, Jesus, it was supposed to take one hour, but it felt like forever. I couldn't find a way to make it simple and still pleasant to look at, at least for me. So, after hours of struggle, I decided to keep it simple in the end. I really need to do more exercises like that.
It's a bit early to give my perspective on this, but in next Friday's post, I'll explain my mess a little better. Don't worry, once I manage to put my experience into words, I'll share it with you in deep detail.
I've been working on my next poem for the past week, and I've slowly realized that it might take longer than expected. But here's a sneak peek of the text, just in case you enjoy my writing endeavors:
I’m in charge of the tear delivery department.
From tears of joy to stomachache,
children are my most loyal customers.
Adults, they hate my work,
locking themselves in quiet boxes.
But when the time comes, and it always does...
I deliver.
I used to wonder if I was cruel, leaving rivers behind.
But then I realised:
Tears clear the view through the lies.
So, I don’t resent being avoided.
Is not joy what I pursuit
But carving meaning from the weight of truth.
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Now it feels a little too literal. I'd like it to be more profound or ambiguous, so the actual art brings more clarity, but we'll see.
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