mkcos
Moving swiftly forward
Published: December 24th 2023, 7:10:02 pm
Hey friends!
not me, relating to Romana Flowers in my 30s :
I apologize that this is long and kind of rude, just keep in mind that none of YOU are the issue. none of YOU can contribute to my decision to retire, and ALL of you are the reason that I want to continue out my content schedule because I do appreciate the love and support, it's just.... not enough to survive on anymore and takes a lot of my time up.
the past year or so, I've reflected on my future. I started doing microkitty for a job, yes, but mostly to fund college. I graduated in 2022 and also turned 30 that year. I have been struggling with my 5 year plan in my head for awhile now.
I've effectively "left the internet." *shrug* I posted every day on my twitter that I was leaving twitter, and to join my discord if you want to keep up with me. then I deleted my twitter. I then got a barage of messages asking me what happened to my twitter, because they didn't see any posts. which is.... kinda why I left. the algorithm isn't kind to me, even to the people who WANT to see my stuff. it's just brutal. I had 15 THOUSAND "followers" on twitter and my most "likes" engagement was about 100. that's .... not great. and that's not anyone's fault other than the algorithm and my own.
I deleted my facebook and Instagram for the same reasons. I'm only getting interaction from bots for the most part. I delete more comments from bots saying "want more likes? check us out!" than I care to. it's just gotten too much for me to give a shit about.
I am fed up with the internet. I am not fed up with any of you. my paying fans, even if you've only paid me once, are not the issue here. it's the people who message me "wow, if I had known you were quitting, I would have bought something." and when I message them back and say "well actually, you still can!" and they ghost me completely. that's what I've been dealing with this week. I realized early on that most people (not you guys, like... the people who don't pay, but want to appear like they do or will) just want to SAY they support me, or SAY they WANT to support me, but when it comes down to it, they don't or won't actually ever follow through. It's easy for them to act like they are supportive when I "take away" the avenue to support me. It's the same thing when I say I'm going to cam or make a video. "i can't wait for that!" and then only 3 people tip, and it causes a lot of stress for me and puts a lot of pressure on those 3 people. I'm so jaded rn, I swear.
I am fed up with that. I am so tired of seeing people "save" my posts on twitter when I promo a few set or video and then I make no sales. I am so tired of people asking me "are you having a sale since you're retiring?" NOPE. if anything, I should charge you double for waiting 6 years to purchase a set from 2016, just hoping to get a cheap deal since I'm leaving. I'm sick of it. I'm tired of fighting to pay my mortage. I'm tired of begging for money for my dog's vet bills. I'm just overally done with every aspect of struggling.
I'm tired of leaks. I'm tired of people leaking my content and calling me ugly, I'm tired of people leaking my content and calling me a slut or a whore. I'm just so done with it. when I made enough to survive, I shrugged it off as part of the job, but now I can't do that anymore. I'm not thriving and not surviving and all the awful things. it's contributed grossly to me leaving. Last year, after taxes, I made less than minimum wage from microkitty. this year, I made even less. I was hoping to launch my craft business and have it be my next new thing. but it's not looking like that will work out for me.
currently, I am wrapping up my in progress costumes and planning to stop using patreon in June of 2024.
my current to do list is as follows :
January - Tifa (FF) (done editing)
Febuary - Purah (tears of the kingdom) (shot, editing now)
March - Rosa (Pokémon) or summer rose (rwby)
April - summer rose (rwby) or Rosa (pokemon)
May- maid Zelda (tears of the kingdom wig, cute maid outfit)
June - a formal shadowheart (bg3).
currently, as of writing this, June will be the last content month. as of writing this, I will firmly AT LEAST make it to February, as I have the content ready to go. I am working in a new job now and I don't really know if I have it in me to shoot and edit content. I will keep you updated as much as I can. but firmly, you AT LEAST have me for 2 more content cycles. if that makes you uncomfortable, you are free to leave without judgement. I am closing my big cartel shortly. I am moving away from being online in any aspect.
I will contact everyone who has outstanding stuff I need to send them, make sure they have my email or a way to follow up. One person, for example, is in the military and wants to wait to come home for me to ship Polaroids. which is fine, if you are in a situation like that, you can email me 5 years from now and I'll still have them ready to go.
I am not doing any sales. ever again. I am fulfilling my obligations and moving on with my life.