Published: January 28th 2023, 12:06:14 am
I'm kinda drunk right now and I tend to get really honest and open when I am. I just want to thank everyone that's actively supporting me making this thing. In my day to day life i struggle a lot with anxiety, self hatred and a toxically low self esteem. I feel guilty for who I am and what I do, but getting all this support for something I am passionate about and receiving all your gratitude and money is so uplifting to me. I know I don't always deliver what I promise and trust me when I say I feel plenty bad about it and I beat myself up a lot (probably more than you do), but regardless I keep on receiving your support and it feels amazing. The money has really helped me stay sane too over the past year or so.
So yeah, thank you. I'm messed up in all kinds of ways but making this thing and sharing it with all of you had been one of the best decisions of my life. I will continue always to try and be better and put out the very best my fucked up mind (which is literally what my username on Reddit means in Dutch: "fucked up mind") will let me put out.
So yeah, I'm a bit emotional, but just... Thanks. You all literally changed my life for the better. I'm enjoying my drink for now and getting back to it tomorrow ❤️