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Wait, What is Breeding Season? (From the Diary)

Published: December 8th 2024, 7:05:56 pm

Dear Diary,

This has been going on for DAYS. I think tonight is my breaking point though. There’s this deep deep need growing inside me. I’ve never really felt anything like it before, but now I can’t ignore it. I tried to make it go away, I tried every toy I own and it only makes me feel more stimulated, more desperate, more intense. It’s not something I can put into words exactly, but I feel it, like this pull. It's driving my body, like I'm not in charge anymore. It's almost like I'm an animal? Or some sex-driven robot?!

When I daydream, I picture being close to someone, really close, like something shifts. I can’t explain it. It’s like I need it, like I HAVE to feel... something else, something deeper, something real. Until I have that, I fear I won't be back to my normal self. I'll just be on edge, never finding that release I desperately need.

I can’t stop thinking about it. I think the next person that walks by me is going to get me pregnant. And I'm NOT joking.

xo ella