Published: August 17th 2019, 2:31:20 pm
Hey guys, Martin here again
Apologies for the very last minute nature of this post. I was trying to hold out hope that I'd be feeling more like myself by today and would be able to go ahead with the patron stream as planned.
I'm still out of the hospital, have been for the better part of a week, but it honestly has not been enough time for me to recover to the extent that I feel comfortable putting myself in a streaming situation. I'm still very rough and honestly it's just going to cause me more stress and upset if I were to push myself today. I have a few follow ups with my doctor next week that I hope put me more on the path to feeling better/like myself, but as is I'm kind of a wreck both physically and emotionally.
I am getting better, I want to emphasize that it's not just me sitting at home feeling awful and getting worse. The medication I'm on has kept my pain and discomfort levels tolerable, but mentally - as far as stress goes - I feel like I'm at death's door. I don't want to push myself harder than I can go right now.
So until next time I'm going to have to delay the stream once again - and please do accept my sincerest apologies. I'm trying to be better at self advocating and at taking care not to push myself too hard and this has to be part of it.
Thank you for understanding.
Martin