Published: September 26th 2023, 1:32:59 am
This takes place after the birth of mine and Sirius's first child, Artemis. Also at this point we were no longer in a throuple with Remus. Although we left things open. Remus was also seeing Bill at this time and was living between our house and Bill's.
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So let's get started!
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On this particular day, Remus was home, helping out around the house and helping us with Artemis. Artemis was being super fussy all day and was also teething really bad so I was very overwhelmed and tired. I had put her in her crib for bed as it was nighttime but she refused to fall asleep. She just cried and cried and I couldn't handle it anymore.
I decided that I needed to get some fresh air because I felt as if I was on the verge of a panic attack. I felt comfortable enough leaving Artemis to cry it out because her crib was in our bedroom and Sirius was in bed, sleeping.
So I quietly walked downstairs and went out the back door, not even looking to see where Remus was. As I stood on the patio I took some deep breaths while looking up at the stars. Trying to calm myself down and avoid a panic attack.
I must have been standing out there for about five minutes before Remus came outside. Which scared the shit out of me because I had my back turned to the door and was so deep in thought, that the sound of the door snapped me out of it and made me jump a bit.
I placed my hand over my heart as I turned quickly to see Remus standing there with a slight smirk on his face, trying to hide his amusement at my reaction. He put his hand up and apologized, "I'm sorry I didn't mean to scare you."
I laughed nervously, my hand moving from my chest to rub my face. "It's alright." I said as I lowered my guard and took a few steps closer to him. I wasn't sure if maybe I had woken him up when I came downstairs so I apologized. "Did I wake you? I'm sorry if I did. I wasn't sure if you were sleeping or not." Saying this fairly quick and with a nervous shake in my voice.
He shook his head and stepped closer to me, placing a hand on my shoulder to comfort me. "No no! You didn't wake me. I was awake. I was just straightening up around the house and then I saw you through the window. Thought I'd come out here and see what you were doing." His thumb rubbing my shoulder gently to calm me as he could tell I was panicky. "What's going on, love?" He asked with a worried look in his eyes.
The feeling of his hand on my shoulder was comforting and I instinctively tilted my head so that my cheek was pressed against his hand for a few seconds. Then I lifted my head back up and took a deep breath before speaking. "So much. I'm so overwhelmed Remus." I said as my eyes began to tear up.
"Oh no.. No don't cry." He whispered as his free hand came up to caress my cheek. I closed my eyes for a moment to take in the feeling of his hand on my face. When I opened my eyes I began to sob, feeling overwhelmed for so many reasons. "Shh shh.." He pulled me in for a hug and held me tightly. "Let it out, darling. It's alright. I've got you." His voice bringing me comfort.
We stood there for a few minutes in silence as he held me close and I sobbed against his chest, his one hand stroking my back while the other held my head close to him. Then he let me go when I pulled back to wipe the tears from my face. "Why don't we go for a walk? You can tell me everything that's going on. Maybe it'll help." He suggested as he looked down at me with caring eyes.
I nodded in agreement. "Okay. Yeah. That sounds like a good idea." He then held out his arm for me to hold, which I did, and then we began our walk around the property. Our home is on a huge piece of farmland so we have plenty of space to ourselves.
We spent quite a while talking and walking. It honestly was extremely therapeutic and I was able to get a lot out. I'll spare you all from reading about it because I know you guys just want me to get to the juicy part of this story. So when I had pretty much gotten mostly everything out I stopped walking and looked up at the moon as it caught my eye. Remus stopped as well but when I turned to look at him to see if he was also looking at the moon, I saw that he was staring at me with a smile on his face.
"What?" I asked, stepping closer to him with a slight smile. "I'm just admiring you and the person you've become. I know you're in a bit of a rough patch at the moment but you're doing the absolute best you can." He stepped closer so that there was hardly any space between us. I looked down and laughed nervously "Well I'm not so sure about that. I mean look at me. I'm a mess. I can hardly handle motherhood at the moment..." I was going to say more but Remus stopped me by pulling me in for a hug.
"Don't put yourself down. You may not see it at the moment but I see it. I see how much you've grown and how amazing you are doing. All parents struggle and you know you aren't alone. I mean look, I'm here." He said while stroking the back of my head. "I'm so glad you're here Remus." I said, letting out a sigh that I had been holding in and he began to rub my back. "I'm glad I'm here too. I've missed our times together." He said, kissing the top of my head.
I felt so safe and warm in his arms, "So have I..." I said as I lifted my head up to look at him. We smiled at each other and I pulled back from the hug so that I could have a better look at him. At that moment something just took over me and I got up on my tippy toes and kissed him. I quickly pulled away though because I felt that I made a mistake kissing him. Since we were no longer in a relationship(throuple w/ Sirius).
Staring at him with wide eyes, I tried to gauge what he was thinking by looking at his face. "Remus I-" But I barely had a chance to finish speaking because he leaned in and kissed me back. His hands came up to hold my face as I gave into the kiss, not wanting it to end. It had been a while since I had felt his lips against mine and even though I was okay with him parting from our throuple... I really missed being intimate with him like this.
We both pulled away from each other to catch our breath and see the other's reaction to what had just happened. Remus was rubbing the back of his neck as he spoke "I've missed that as well." He let out a soft laugh with a smile which made me relax and smile back, knowing that we both felt the same way. "So have I." I said, my eyes locking with his while we both smiled at each other.
"If you don't mind I'd like to kiss you again." He said his voice at a slight whisper as he caressed my arm. Something about the way he said this made me smile so big and I nodded, "I'd love that." I said before pressing my lips back against his. This time he kissed me back with much more passion than before. His hands gripped my shoulders and mine grasped at the material of his sweater as I kissed him back with the same passion
I felt his teeth graze my lips as we kissed which made me let out a soft gasp, making him chuckle against my lips. From the moment he kissed me that passionately I was feeling butterflies in my stomach. As our kiss grew deeper, I grew quite turned on. I mean how could I not? Something about this moment was so magical and perfect and I think we both felt it.
I pulled back slightly, just enough to break the kiss and catch my breath. Remus resting his forehead against mine as we both breathed heavily, having been locked in the kiss for who knows how long.
I think we both wanted to say something but we just couldn't put it into words so instead, we began kissing again. This time Remus became more handsy. Running his hands up and down my sides until his hands slipped into my back pockets, grabbing my ass. That made me moan against his lips, which is one of his weaknesses and gets him immediately more turned on.
He began to take a few steps forward which made me step back, continuing our kiss until I tripped on something. Which caused us both to stumble, break apart from the kiss, and led to me falling flat on my ass. "Ouch." I said with a pout, although it didn't actually hurt too bad. Remus immediately kneeled down in front of me and held my face in his hands, "Oh shit. Are you okay? Did you get hurt?" He asked with panic in his voice as he was genuinely concerned that I might have hurt myself badly.
I shook my head and laughed it off, "All this grass broke my fall." I said as I ran my arms through the tall thick grass around us. "But I'm fine. Maybe a bit embarrassed." Letting out a sigh of relief he nodded, "Well you have nothing to be embarrassed about. That was my fault for trying to walk with you while we were kissing." He said with a laugh. "What were you even trying to accomplish by doing that?" I asked, raising a brow.
"I'm not really sure... Just kind of did it without thinking I guess." He said looking a bit confused, trying to think about why he did that. He shook his head at himself and then looked at me, bringing his hand up to brush my hair from my face. We looked into each other's eyes as he did this and then he leaned in to kiss me again. But before our lips met, I saw the look on his face and it had that 'Oh I'm going to fuck you' kind of look, if that makes any sense.
As our kiss grew deeper, Remus inched his body closer to mine and placed his knee in between my legs so that with the slightest bit of movement from the both of us, it would cause me to grind against him. When I felt this I moaned against his lips and my hands reached up to grab his face, trying to pull his lips against mine more than they already were.
He groaned as I did this and then wrapped an arm around my back while he gently pushed me down so that I would be laying on the grass, with him hovering over me. Through this movement, his knee left its place between my legs which left me feeling needy and very much turned on.
As he pulled back from the kiss I bit his lip gently, my hands now rubbing his shoulders. He groaned and licked his lip where my teeth had been. "Now why would you-" He began to speak before I cut him off "Remus." I said, looking into his eyes. "What?" He asked looking a bit concerned. I swear I don't know where this came from or why I just blurted this out but I literally said "Please fuck me." I sounded so needy and desperate but it clearly did something because he smirked and nodded, saying "Oh I will..." in such a deep and sexy voice.
He kissed me, his hands having already found their way under my shirt, massaging my boobs over my bra with his palms. The sensation causing me to grow quite wet. Then he began to kiss my neck which made me moan next to his ear. With my arms wrapped around the back of his neck, I felt him shiver as he pressed his body against mine. That's when I felt his erection pressing against my thigh through his pants.
I pushed myself up against him to tease him a bit as sucked on my neck, his hands now gripping the bottom of my shirt trying to pull it off of me. He had to pull his head back as we worked together to get my shirt off and once it was off we both kind of paused as he looked down at my body. "You are so beautiful." He said with a mesmerized look on his face which made me blush and bite my lip. His hand trailed over my bra and down my stomach, pausing at the button of my pants.
I broke the silence by saying "I took mine off, now it's your turn..." He nodded "Ah of course. You're right." He sat up with his knees on either side of me while he pulled off his sweater, bundled it up, and then leaned back down. Gently sliding his hand behind my head, lifting it up and placing his sweater under as a sort of pillow for me. "Thank you." I said with a smile, my hands running up his bare back, giving him the chills.
"We've got to warm each other up. It's quite chilly." I said while I brought my hands down to his waistband, tugging at it. Although it was a fairly cool night, it wasn't really that bad. "You're right. I can think of one thing that'll keep me warm..." Remus said as he unbuttoned my pants, unzipping them and then sliding his hand down under my panties to press his palm against my pussy.
I gasped at the feeling of his cold hand and before I could say anything, he slipped two fingers into me and began to pump them just a bit. I closed my eyes, taking in the feeling of his fingers inside of me while quiet moans left my lips. "You're already so wet..." He said with a little bit of shock in his voice, I guess not expecting me to be that turned on already.
I just nodded, biting the inside of my lip, trying to contain my moans as he pumped his fingers. Then he also began to rub my clit with his thumb and the pleasure was so overwhelming that my legs started to shake. "Remus.. stop." I said between gasps. He immediately pulled his fingers out from me and took his hand out of my pants. "What? Are you okay? Did I do something?" He asked with a worried look.
"No no! Everything is great. I didn't mean to worry you." I said while bringing my hand up to stroke his cheek which made him calm down quickly. "Oh good. Then what's going on?" He asked as he looked into my eyes. "As amazing as your fingers are, I just want you to fuck me... I want your-" I was cut off when he chuckled and said "Ahh! I see! Well, I won't turn that down!" His hand stroked my cheek. Then he began to undo his pants as I looked up at him, watching his every movement in anticipation.
While I watched him I admired how beautiful he looked under the moonlight. He definitely noticed how I was looking at him because we made eye contact while he pushed his pants (as well as his boxers) down and he smiled at me, a slight blush on his face. Then I couldn't help but look down to see his dick as it sprung out from his boxers. Another beautiful sight that I had missed very much.
He looked down at himself then back up at me with a smirk on his face. "Let's get your jeans off now..." He whispered as his hands worked to pull my jeans and panties down. I lifted my hips up off the ground to help, our eyes locked on each other the whole time. Once my pants were completely off and I was fully exposed, my body shivered as the cool night air hit my skin.
Remus now hovering over me, placing his hands on the ground next to my head to hold himself up. The both of us breathing kind of heavy in anticipation of what was to come. Then he leaned his face down to kiss me gently. My hands came up to grab his face as I deepened the kiss. He pressed himself down on me, the warmth of his body against mine. His dick rubbing against me with every slight movement he made.
When he pulled back from the kiss he looked down at me, licking his bottom lip before speaking "You ready?" Still holding his face in my hands I watched as he lifted one of his hands up to stroke himself. Biting my bottom lip I nodded, pushing my hips up to make contact with his dick. "Mhm." was all I was able to get out as he had already lined himself up with me, taking a deep breath before he slowly began to push his tip into me.
The both of us gasping together as he entered me, taking things very slow at first. My hands now gripping his shoulders, looking into his eyes. I watched his face intently as he bottomed out in me. Keeping his hips still for a moment so that the both of us could adjust before things continued. "You feel so good around me." He moaned out while I brought my legs up to wrap around his waist. The feeling of my movement caused us both to moan. Then I ran my hand up his neck, gently pulling his head down so that I could kiss him.
When his lips pressed against mine I moaned into his mouth which lead him to pull out of me only a bit before gently pushing himself back in. He began to slowly thrust in and out of me, building up a nice pace. Our bodies pressing and rubbing against each other as our kisses got sloppy and Remus had to break the kiss to rest his head in the nook of my neck.
We both moaned and gasped as his thrusts grew a bit quicker and rougher, the slapping sound of our skin making contact with each pounding thrust filled the night. "Oh fuck Remus..." I gasped, my legs wrapped so tightly around him pulling him in hard with each thrust, wanting to feel every inch of him inside of me.
I arched my back and rolled my head back as Remus fucked me, him groaning loudly. His soft lips kissing and biting my shoulder making me gasp as I began to feel overwhelmed (in a good way) by all the sensations. My nails started to dig into his skin which led to him grabbing both my hands and placing them on the ground above my head. Our fingers intertwined.
The way we were positioned at this point with my legs up around his waist, made it so that as he thrust into me, his pelvis rubbed against my clit. Which only made me grow closer and closer to my climax. The pleasure building up inside me to the point I was gasping and moaning loudly next to Remus's ear. Which made his thrusts grow rougher but slightly sloppy as he was getting close as well.
At this point, we were both moaning, grunting, and muttering words of love and praise to one another. It felt so primal in a way but so beautiful. Fucking under the stars, in the tall grass as the moonlight shone upon our naked bodies.
"I'm going to come, Remus. I'm so close..." I said between gasps. He lifted his head to look at me while pounding into me at this point and he kissed me hard. "Come for me, darling..." he said through panted breaths, keeping up the same pace to get me to reach my release. That familiar tightening in my lower stomach growing.
He released my hands so that I could wrap my arms around him. His hands gripping the ground beside my head. I held him close, our bodies pressed against each other as I reached my climax. Tucking my face into his shoulder as I came, my pussy tightening around him.
"Mmm fuck." Remus groaned, probably enjoying both the sounds of my moans and the feeling of being inside me as I came. Within a few seconds of my climax, Remus thrusted a few more times before pulling out of me and reaching his hand down to stroke himself. He groaned loudly as he came onto my stomach. He held my chin with his thumb and pointer finger, kissed me softly, and then rolled off of me. Now laying on his back next to me.
We both looked up at the night sky, breathing heavily. Staying silent for a bit until I spoke up. "Some walk, huh?" I said with a laugh as I turned onto my side and placed my hand on his chest, looking at him. "A walk to remember." He said, his eyes looking away from the sky to look into my eyes. We both smiled at each other lovingly then he kissed my forehead and pulled me in close to him.
We laid there for a while, just using each other's bare bodies to keep warm before we cleaned up and got dressed. Walking back towards the house, holding hands.
{That's pretty much it but I ended up feeling super guilty because of him no longer being in a relationship with Sirius and me. I thought I had done something terrible behind Sirius's back even though we left things open to whatever when it came to our relationship with Remus. I felt bad because Sirius obviously wasn't aware of what had happened. I couldn't even sleep that night because I was thinking about it too much. I ended up coming clean to him about what happened the next morning, expecting the worst but I should've known better. Because his response was: "I'm so disappointed in you..." Pausing for far too long before he said the next part. "You should've woken me up so I could watch!" Typical. So anyways I told Sirius all the details he wanted to know and he was totally fine with it. I think he was actually jealous that he wasn't there to see it. But everything was ok.}