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~The Hobbit: Thorin X Listener SFW: Resting~ {Patreon Exclusive}
Published: August 26th 2024, 8:10:41 pm
Thorin knows a thing or two about the concept of pushing oneself too far.....and he doesn't want to see it happen to you.
Contains: Comfort, Advice, Mental Health Talk
Honestly, in canon Thorin could use this talk, but we're also taking liberty with canon because canon Thorin is also, you know, dead, so yeah. Magically fairy wand Thorin truly learning his lesson and you get what's below lol. I hope those of you who are struggling with the concept of rest—true rest—find relief soon, and know that you are allowed to struggle, even if the struggles of the rest of the world seem far more grand than your own. You will find your way, just give yourself grace and do it in your own time.
~Audio Transcript Below~
Thorin: I know it seems as though there is no light at the end of the tunnel.....that all of the trials and tribulations that you have struggled through have been for not....... but it is not true.....
You are convinced that there is not enough strength in yourself.....that you could be doing--nay--should be doing more.....because you look upon the world outside the sphere of your own influence and see the terrors and the horrible realities others have to face and think that what troubles you is nothing.....
I....understand the sentiment......but you cannot mine from a vein that is empty......
*pause*
If a vein of metal or minerals has no clear signs of giving more ore......why would it make sense to continue digging, searching, scrounging and compromise the structural integrity of the mine?
*pause*
It doesn't make sense....does it?
*pause*
So why--may I ask--are you treating yourself the same way?
*long pause*
Yes....there have been and will be more times in the future where you must weather the storm.....where you cannot take the time to rest.......
But remember......debts must be repaid......and that includes debts of the body and mind......
*pause*
You as well as anyone know that there was a period of time in my life where things were…….difficult for me…..to say the least……
I was......a stubborn arse.....to put it lightly.....
I was so entrenched in my own need for....things to work out....I was willing to do.....and almost did anything for them to come true......to the point where I almost lost my life and the lives of my kin to greed.......
*pause*
But it took me finally finally realizing that my people.....my kin.....you.....were only trying to get me to see through my own bullheadedness......through my own madness.....
Though you are not fighting to reclaim your homeland.....or fighting in what seems like an impossible war.....it does not mean that you have to continue to treat yourself as though you are......or that you have no room to be vulnerable.....you do not have to pretend.....
Keeping it all inside is not the way to do it....I understand now......
And I understand how it is so much easier to say to ones that you care for....than to yourself.....
*pause*
What I mean is.....this turmoil will not end for you if you continue to bottle things up and advance forward like a farmer ignoring that the soil of the field has already been plowed and seeded and used to the point where it cannot give anything else forth.
*pause*
*scoffs lightly*
I'm being philosophical.....allow me the metaphors......
*pause*
Farmers sometimes burn their fields, give certain areas a rest, to allow them to regrow.....to enrich the soil.......
*pause*
Now I'm not saying that you should set yourself on fire......but resting--and I mean 'true' resting--will not hurt you....
*pause*
Do you not remember what I was like after all of the fighting had finally ended....when the dust settled and we were victorious?
I tried to continue on....to push through because there was so much work to still be done......
But my kin.....my friends--including you--refused to let me.
*pause*
And you have a wounded mind and soul currently......so what is the difference?
*long pause*
*chuckles ruefully*
I suppose this could be called an intervention.....
You are not a one person war machine.....you are not condemned to face this world alone....not if I have any say in it.....
Without those who cared for me guiding me, and sticking with me when times were rough......my journey....my goals would not have succeeded......
*deep inhale and exhale*
And I would not be here.......
*pause*
So please.....allow yourself the care that you give to others......perhaps treat yourself how you would treat others once.....instead of the other way around.....
*pause*
I would not be able to live with myself if I allowed one of the people I care about waste away simply because everything on the outside 'seemed fine'. I have learned that those are usually the people who struggle the most......because they do not wish for others to feel the way that they have or currently feel.
*pause*
You are more than worth the effort.......
If it takes the remainder of my life to prove it to you….that you are worth more than what you do and put into the world.....then so be it......
*pause*
*hushed*
But please do not think for one moment that this world is better off without you.....
*pause*
*hushes*
I know.....let it out......and anyone who says that you aren't doing enough, or that you have it easy or are lazy? They're going to have to get through me first......
*lowly*
It is not a weakness to ask for help......and you are not alone.....