Published: August 29th 2024, 7:17:50 pm
So I haven’t really posted much on here recently , and I haven’t been able to work much on videos the last couple of days .
I feel like I need to let you guys in on why that is , especially since your guys’ money allows me to do what I do .
First of all , because you’re probably curious , I will let you know that my next TWO videos will be “Ranking Every Goosebumps Cover” , parts one and two . So hopefully you’re excited for that !! I think it will be fun !
But aside from that , to keep a long complicated life story short , I have been a recreational marijuana user for many years now , and I’m currently trying my hardest to kick the habit .
It’s legal where I’m from , but that obviously doesn’t mean it’s great for you .
This change has led to a lot of physical and mental withdrawal symptoms , so the past few days (and likely the upcoming weeks) I’ll be struggling behind the scenes more than ever before .
My sleep and appetite have been massively disturbed because of this , along with a host of other ailments like stress , fatigue , soreness , general sickness etc. etc.
Stopping is something I’ve tried to do many times , and it’s lead to hiatus’ on my channel before . This one will not be long , and I’m not even taking a break really . I’m still trying my absolute hardest to make content , it’s just harder now , and so I can’t reliably get everything I want done as fast as I want to . Soon enough though , and it will be even smoother and better than it ever was before .
Your continued support of me is MORE than appreciated , I have no words for how impactful you people are to my career and wellbeing . I sincerely apologize if this lessens your view of me , but I’d rather be honest and transparent with you about the lack of work on my end than have you guessing what’s going on .
Addiction can be a taboo subject but I don’t think that has to be the case .
I WILL get through this , it’s just going to be a little difficult behind the scenes . Everybody’s got personal issues that we may not be very keen to open up about , and most of the time that’s okay ! I’m not sure if I ever really wanted to talk about this with you all to be honest .
But this is something I’ve been fighting with for a while now , and I think at this point I’d rather tear down the norms and discuss honestly what’s been holding me back , instead of saving face and being aloof and M.I.A. . I am doing my best to get back in the groove , and my videos will keep getting better and better , that I can promise .
Thank you all dearly , once again I’m sorry if this affects how you view me . If you have any questions I’d be more than happy to answer !