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Daddy Issues 🐑

Published: February 17th 2024, 3:02:53 pm

My father and I share a difficult relationship. I get super emotional when I see other people having good relationships with their fathers in real life or in the media, especially younger children.

We've never said the words that I've illustrated to each other but I'm sure he feels that way too.

I've always wanted to talk about this just to let my bottled up feelings out in a place I felt safe in. This is not how I intended to draw about it but it's all I could manage to draw because my eyes wouldn't stop crying and I couldn't see through the tears.

I thought I'd sneakily put this narrative into one of my future stories/comix but I guess directly addressing it is also ok and cathartic.

As a child I was *extremely* close to my father but over the years we've drifted apart and I don't think we recognise each other anymore. It's so weird how that shift happens. I can't look him in the eyes anymore. Aaaaa.

This is not to say he's a terrible person. He's not. And there are days where things are alright/bearable. I just try to avoid talking to him as much as I can. I think WhatsApp and Facebook have ruined him.

He's a good "friend's dad". My friends tend to like him. So if any of my friends is reading this, don't let that change lol

I wish I could fix this but all efforts seem futile. Our beliefs and principles don't match. The way we look at the world is completely different.

I think of the day he'll have to die and the regret and guilt that will wash over me but even that isn't enough for me to make the effort to fix it.

I just feel angry and sad mostly. Sigh.

😞