Published: June 14th 2025, 5:28:12 pm
Hi folks,
I was going to wait til Monday to announce this but I think I'm better off just 'ripping the band-aid off' so to speak...
Unfortunately I received a (Section 21) No-Fault Eviction Notice from my landlady yesterday evening. Basically she's lost her job due to the change in Foreign Aid Policy in the US. (I think she does Humanitarian stuff or Charity stuff or something; I don't really know lol). But she now has to move back here. And as a result... I have to move out. And I have only two months to do so.
Before I continue: This isn't me 'begging'. I haven't set up a GoFundMe or anything nor am I asking anyone to increase their pledge. Quite the opposite. Feel free to delete your Patreon Pledge / YouTube Membership ASAP. I won't take it personally; it's your money!
Anywho - I've lived in this property for over a decade so the rent has actually been pretty reasonable for quite a while. Obviously now I'm going to have to find a new place to live as well as pay quite a bit more rent in that new place as well. Not complaining - literally everyone is in the same boat and I'm fortunate to have NOT had to pay today's rate of rent up to this point. Butt... long story short; can't really do this anymore. I think it's been on the cards for a while anyway but this latest development was the final nail in the coffin (so to speak).
But yeah - The channel has not been doing well this year. I don't know why but pretty much every metric besides sub count has been in the decline. Views. Audience Retention. Click Through Rate. Even engagement. I've been practically Bipolar with Imposter Syndromey for the entire year thus far and kinda suffering in silence with that (albeit with some erratic behaviour on display during the Chronicle series). I'm not the best at putting my thoughts and feelings into words and / or communicating anyway. Plus - I have no idea how to navigate between 'Opening up' and 'Massive Overshares'. But yeah - I've been struggling quite a bit for quite a while. Tbh I've kinda always felt rejected by the wider WoW community these entire 8 years!. Something about me just hasn't landed with them and so I've always felt a little bit invisible and 'self-doubty'.
I can't help but laugh, though, at the irony of how I forced myself to finish the Chronicle series (which i bloody hated) and now I won't be able to finish the Demon Soul series (which I have loved making so far and genuinely feel is the best work I've ever done).
But yeah - Thank you very much for your support. I know some of you have been Patrons for literal years. And I feel very grateful and privileged to have received said support from you. (Either currently or in the past for those that have cancelled over the years but still follow) Thank you for believing in me. I know I've made some mistakes along the way. I'm very sorry that I didn't get to finish this series or the overall project (of adapting all the books). Thank you for being a part of this journey and allowing me to do this thing (whatever it is I've been doing lol)
Cheers mates!
PS. I don't know when to put the Chapter 5 video out? Should I bother? lol. Should I just put it out now? I feel like this is logistically more complicated than it needs to be. I guess I'll leave it a few days and put it out on Monday or something. Probably only get about 400 views anyway based on the trajectory of this series thus far! haha