Published: February 17th 2025, 6:18:47 pm
Hey patronites! A new week has begun, and I hope it brings you all the motivation and strength to achieve everything you've set out to do! šŖ
My Monday started off a bit chaotic š« Dasha somehow managed to choke on something she wasnāt supposed to be eating (of course! š) The moment I noticed, I completely panicked and immediately thought I had to do something. Instinctively, I tried performing the Heimlich maneuver on her, fearing the worst. I was so desperate to help that I even messaged Dr. Paulo this morning, asking if it was really necessary, since she wasnāt actually out of breath or in distress. I couldnāt see anything in her throat. She was just trying to expel whatever was bothering her, not necessarily choking in a dangerous way. Thankfully, Dasha figured things out on her own, but the whole situation left me deep in thoughtā¦
I've always been someone who prioritizes others, always stepping in to help whenever I can. But this made me realize how difficult it is for me to distinguish when something genuinely requires my intervention and when I should take a step back. This constant impulse to act, to prevent, to controlāwhere does it come from? And more importantly, how do I learn to manage it?
I study a lot about Stoicism and philosophy, but I still struggle to control my impulses and emotions. Looking back, I know this stems from my past... After everything Iāve been through, it's no surprise that my first instinct is always to be on high alert, ready to react. Todayās episode with Dasha made me recognize that this is something I truly need to work on. Thatās why I finally decided to return to therapy š I know that self-awareness alone isnāt enough. I need the right tools to navigate these reactions in a healthier way š
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On a lighter note, Sunday was my rest day! Instead of gaming, I wanted something more relaxing, so I finally started watching an anime that had been on my list for a long timeāFrieren: Beyond Journeyās End. And wow... I completely fell in love with it š„ŗš
The emotional depth in this story hit me right in the heart. Itās about an elf mage, Frieren, who embarks on a journey long after the legendary adventure she once had with her party is over. The way the anime explores time, memory, and the emotional bonds we create is just so touching. Itās rare to find a story that blends melancholy and warmth so beautifully. If you havenāt watched it yet, I highly recommend it!
Aside from that, Iāve been working on optimizing my routine, and it makes me really happy to see that Iām managing to keep up with my training and diet without it feeling like a sacrifice. After all, discipline is the key to everything š
Letās make this week count! What are your goals for the week?
PS: Let me know if long, introspective posts like this are of interest to you š„°