Published: September 28th 2020, 9:12:49 am
Hi guys! I'm sorry for being gone.
I have just paused billing for october as I won't be working on the game for at least a month. I'm kind of figuring out if I want to continue with miss-adventures. I'll explain why I've been gone.
1. I've been ill. Don't worry, it's not COVID, but just a regular flu :) Haven't been feeling well at all.
2. I've been working on some stuff. I won't get too personal for privacy reasons, but I haven't been happy with my life for a long time and I've finally decided to cut out some things that aren't good for me. That means diet but also some addictions including social media and... porn. I love porn, but that's kind of the problem. I spent waaay too much time on watching porn, looking for porn, writing erotica and making this game.
Like, I'm jobless, I should be spending my time on things that actually improve my life and here I am spending all my time on porn stuff. Literally 8+ hours a day sometimes. It was affecting my relationship and my mood drastically and I finally realized it's not just a hobby anymore: it's an obsession and an addiction and it's not healthy. There's also the fact I'm hiding all this, including the income, from my partner which feels pretty bad. I can't spend the money really or I'll have to explain I've been doing crazy porn stuff for it and I'd probably lose the girl I honestly wanna marry and spend my life with. It's not a good situation, honestly and I'm kind of dying to just get out of it and live a normal life. If I were single I'd probably double down and try and make a full living off this stuff, but my GF is more important to me than this.
So I'm kind of figuring out if I wanna continue miss-adventures, but I'm taking a little break for october at least so I can do a little detox and see how that works for me and how I feel after. I do genuinely love working on the game so I'm basically torn between two options:
Option 1: Finding someone else to continue it, kind of passing the torch, just pulling my hands off and either cancelling or passing on the patreon.
Option 2: Finding someone to do the writing part so I can just do the coding part. Coding is by far my favorite part of doing this game. It'd have to be a great writer and I'd have no trouble paying him/her half of the Patreon income. If anyone wants to apply, send me a message and we'll talk.
You don't have to cancel your subscription, OCTOBER WILL NOT BE BILLED! :) If by november I haven't made a choice yet, I will pause the billing again. I will not bill you guys for a month where I haven't worked on the game. But of course you are free to cancel, lower your pledge or cancel and come back later and I would completely understand.
I do hope I find a way to continue this without it taking over my life, but I'm just not sure how realistic that is. That's what I'm trying to figure out in the coming month. I appreciate all the love I've gotten over these past months and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I'll come back with an update as soon as I've figured this stuff out. I figured I owed you all an explanation after being gone for a few weeks and I wanted to pause the billing before october comes around.