I'm bored and since everyone loves accusing me of lying i fi..
Published: July 2nd 2024, 7:11:41 am
I'm bored and since everyone loves accusing me of lying i figured i'd tell a story!:) I have acrylics so sorry for the typos lol.... ANYWAYYYY when i was ___ i was extremely religious. I made the decision to wait to have sex till marriage and I was 100% on this decision. I was extremely religious until I started experimenting with drinking and decided that it was okay to have fun... regardless of this I saw many reasons why waiting till marriage was still a good idea even though it wasn't really for religious purposes as it had originally been. My parents had me out of wedlock, they never got married. I've never seen them together. They have never been nice tvvo each other. It caused me a lot of pain and hardship and so i made the decision that i would NEVER end up like them. They had so many of us from so many different men and women, and it made my life difficult. I saw what benefits could come from waiting till marriage. I don't have to worry about pregnancy with a man that could potentially leave me one day or turn out horrible. I am sooooo soooo glad i did not have sex with my ex's cause i really did think i was going to marry them one day. but what if a kid came out of that... i would have been stuck in a horrible relationship. My life ruined. Not only that, it runs the risk of HPV or an STI having sex with multiple partners and if u know me - im a fucking hypochondriac. I suck dick, i use butt plugs, and I get finger fucked but I made a commitment that only my husband will be inside of me. It will bond us like any other, and hopefully pregnncy will come out of that. With the man i intend and am 100% sure and know i will be with for the rest of my life. Our souls will intertwine in a way i have never experienced. So many ppl tell me i have too high of expectations but honestly, fuck off. Sex is what you make of it, sorry it wasn't amazing and passionate for you, but its going to be the fucking best for me cause im putting my SOUL into it. I get to share that with my husband ONLY. I take marriage very seriously I CANNOT end up like my parents, I WONT. This does not mean i dont have doubts and rethink this often. I am in a relationship with a man i think im going to marry. I am considering having sex after getting engaged but only time will tell. All i can say is THANK GOD i did not give myself fully to those fools in the past.
I am all for being intimate with your partner and making sure you are sexually compatible, that's why i do oral. But i want to be filled up with LOVE and intense passion that only my husband can give to me lol. It wouldn't matter as much and TBH i would feel guilty forever if I just had sex rn.
Side note: I have a vaginal condition that I am currently treating. I have to use steroids and dilators to open up my vagina because it is too small and has almost retracted. This is rare and has occurred my entire life but i did not know it was an issue until i was older and started going to the gyno asking why it hurt so bad when i would put one finger inside of myself. This has deterred me even more my whole life from having sex because i never thought i could fit more than a finger or two without being in so much pain. I am at higher risk for vulvar cancer and NEED to be treated. Im hoping my labia will expand and become normal before i actually decide to have sex. My Dr even asked if it was possible for me to have sex with how small my opening it, which i explained her that im waiting.
LMK if u have any questions! I'm an open book. Lifes crazy and this is my story to share. Fuck those other fake bitches that are lying about being a virgin cause they think itll make them more money. SUPRISEEEE you make way more money when you are open, honest, and vulnerable about your life.