Mommy Help Me Sleep - Fifi Foxx
When I re-watch these old videos (every video I did with Fifi Foxx was during a 4 month period from July - October of 2017) it makes me incredibly sad that I took this actress and producer for granted the way that I did.
At the time, I was dating SmartyKat314, living with her, and paying all her fucking bills (like an idiot) and Fifi was making 4 times the videos with me that Kat ever would in a 2 year period. When Fifi finally left Vegas in November of 2017, she gave me the opportunity to leave with her and start a new thing.
I was too scared to leave Kat. I was in this incredibly manipulative and narcissistic, abusive relationship, but Fifi tried so desperately to free me. She was a wonderful friend. I didn't appreciate all she was and I live with that. I am thankful to have had the chance to work with her and learn what I did. I will never be the kind of fool I was in 2017 again. I am sure I will be a different kind of fool but hopefully I will also learn from those mistakes.
Life is full of duh moments. Fifi is definitely one of mine. She is incredible. I was not so much.
