I remember the times I'd watch sissy porn and be confused, almost repulsed by the idea of touching a cock.
I used to lie to myself that I only want to fuck them, not to be them. It's a brain's way to deal with a cognitive dissonance.
Later I would go on to 'shemale' porn (hate this term but it was all I knew back then). I remember being soo turned on by their hard, veiny cocks & the fact that they were so feminine and hot made it easy for me to protect my fragile masculinity.
I'd watch porn clips of them getting fucked and I'd still lie to myself, that I watch it only for the girls. But deep down I knew that it wasn't true. Slowly I would go into sissy captions and I'd learn why I loved all of this porn so much.
I didn't want to just fuck or suck these girls off. I wanted to BECOME them!
The journey was slow and filled with many purges, like for everyone else, but in the end the inevitable happened! I feminized myself more and more, my vanilla relationship had no chance to survive and once I was by myself, I went full slut mode!
This is me now, walking around smooth, ignoring my clit and looking for new ways to look hot on the camera. My fate was sealed from the very moment I came across first sissy caption.
And let me tell you something: The fact that you are here means that you are waaay deeper then I was at the beginning! This is your fate, you will become the slut you were destined to be 😈