Lies emerge where people fear how others will react to the t..
Published: May 17th 2024, 7:00:10 pm
Lies emerge where people fear how others will react to the truth. In childhood, you're afraid to tell your mom you broke her favorite vase because you know there will be a lot of yelling, not understanding. As adults, you fear telling your partner that the feelings have faded and something needs to be done, because you understand that instead of acceptance and gratitude for honesty, you'll receive insults and scandal. So you lie 'for the best.'
I was never afraid to be who I am. I always told the truth about myself, no matter what it was, which people devalued along with me. Instead of supporting my openness and courage, I mostly received condemnation. People didn't forgive me for my mistakes, even though no one appointed them as judges and didn't ask for their opinion.
When I openly talked about my past, I understood what awaited me, because after a few difficult years of my life, I understood a simple truth - people don't respect honesty because they're used to lying to themselves. Because for some, there is no other way to feel their significance than to belittle others. And I don't condemn them for it - I sympathize.
I don't take to heart everything I hear about myself because it's not about me. I know who I am, and I'm not to blame for people measuring me by standards from which I grew out of long ago(!). Prejudice - that's what I constantly feel from holy people without sins who immediately throw stones at me. It's easy to judge others when you carefully hide your own mistakes from society. Absurdity reigns in the world.
No matter the reaction to me and my path - I'm not afraid of you. I'm not scared. What scares me is living a life of lies, condemning others, or standing still.