November 1, 2023: 🥲 Grounding back into the regular life and..
Published: November 2nd 2023, 3:31:39 am
November 1, 2023: 🥲 Grounding back into the regular life and it doesn’t feel super exciting. I just spent a whole entire third of a year traveling the North American continent to get away from my life’s troubles of losing my husband. As you can see my best friend has stepped in place of my husband to film content with me and I am so grateful for that.
But today, I sit here a little bit somber having to reach back to my regular life, not traveling and exploring. I have to start doing the mundane and I need to change a lot of my habits. Including, lessening my time spent on instagram so I can post more on other websites. I need to quit smoking weed, and I have to organize myself for tax season. It’s bittersweet and it hurts because I am moving further away from my husband and deeper into the widow, single life. I just want to be held and loved by the person I love. It honestly just feels a lot different being alone these days. It’s a lot more of a conscious effort I have to put into myself. And I miss my old self and life. I feel extremely lonely being alone in my home. It’s a deep yearning to have a loved one with me.