Published: October 18th 2024, 9:25:58 am
I've noticed that I often find myself venting on social media. While I try to maintain a positive outlook, I can't help but share the issues I face. If you've followed me for a while, you know that things can escalate quickly on my end. It feels like as soon as I resolve one issue, another one comes up. Life has its ups and downs, but lately, it feels like I'm dealing with something new almost every day, and it can be exhausting.
Yes, I've been taking more days off than usual. When life becomes overwhelming, it's hard to keep up, and I find myself delaying work. Even though I know I’m doing my best, I often feel like I’m falling short.
Since August, my mom has undergone four surgeries, one of which put her in critical condition during the operation. Thankfully, we managed to cover the medical bills, thanks to your support. However, just as one problem is resolved, new ones seem to emerge. I got COVID, which knocked me out for two weeks, and now I’m dealing with breathing issues that leave me fatigued. To add to that, my best friend is currently in the hospital, and another friend needs my support as she has her own struggles.
Despite this, I have conventions planned for this year and next, along with collaborations in the works.
I recently resumed therapy because the weight of everything has become too much to bear, and I’ve found myself with dark thoughts again. Earlier this year, as many of you know, I tried to kill myself. I'm starting to feel depressed once more. With my ADHD, I often feel overwhelmed, leading to moments of paralysis where I can’t focus or move forward, no matter how organized I try to be.
This Halloween was supposed to be GRAND. Until my health started to decline. It feels like I am embodied with bad luck.
I've decided to prioritize my well-being, so I can maintain a positive presence for all of you.
Reply to this message with "🩷" so I know you read everything
I hope you don’t mind me sharing my thoughts. I understand that some of you may prefer not to hear about struggles, especially if you’re facing your own challenges.
Please let me know how you feel about this. Your support means a lot to me
With this, I will be doing temporary changes to focus on myself before I end up doing something dumb.