November 10, 2021. Some of you may remember this set. I did..
Published: October 11th 2023, 5:56:05 pm
November 10, 2021.
Some of you may remember this set. I didn’t disclose this at the time, but I was just on the upswing of the second to worse case of Gastrointestinal problems I have ever had. Since these last two months have proven to be the most consistent months of negative impact, I wanted to open up further about my health journey.
In late July 2021 I ended up in the ER for severe abdominal pain. It took two weeks of recovery before I went back to work as a therapist. Within two weeks of “back to the daily grind”, taking on my full client caseload again, and putting my own needs on the back burner, my health rapidly declined again and I ended up having to step away from being a therapist altogether to then just focus on myself. I bought another smaller van and decided to hit the road and live off my savings. When you work so much you save too since there is no time to play with your money. I hit the road, going wherever I wanted, planning a route through multiple states, and visit friends and nature I wanted to. This was taken at @kriztelyn ’s house, only months after my rapid decline. I was 112 pounds when I should be 125-135 healthy, but despite how thin I was I felt amazing and had stepped back into my power after being rocked physically, severing from my relationship where I was getting no support, breaking a lease and moving, and trying to work through all of this then realizing… working myself to death, even in a helping capacity, was going to help no one ultimately. So I stepped away.
I’ve always modeled, for nearly 20 years, all through every other job and career. As I hit the road, photographers in areas I had never been, or them unaware that I would be in their area, started contacting me randomly to shoot. I was blown away by how when I focus on taking care of yourself, the Universe always provides.
Since then, August 2021, I shifted into full time modeling and content creation. I only book and work with people I want to or have the capacity for. My health is discussed with those I know closely as when I travel to my connections I’m burnt, and need to be taken care of as I can’t always take care of myself. I currently am being taken care of full time, which is needed and necessary so I do take the time to worship and thank my God Eternal.
This last 2 months I have been severely ill 3 times and ended up in the hospital overnight after an ambulance ride once, all due to my GI problems. When something is internal and outside of my control it can be scary at times. I am so grateful for my bounce back in between, and the energy I get from creating for you all. I’m pretty thin right now too but know it’s out of my control. People don’t know my circumstances and jump to false accusations, I just also didn’t want to burden the masses when I thought and felt at the time that this page was meant for only the fuckery and the good times. Life is a wild ride, the balance of good and bad, pain and beauty, happiness and suffering, is what makes it so juicy and incredible.
Thank you all for following me, and if you read this to the end leave a comment saying so and I’ll DM you something special… since this was a fucking NOVEL and I appreciate it if you actually took the time to read it.
