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Yesterday was my birthday. I’m currently in AZ with @sensual..
Published: November 28th 2024, 1:11:45 am
Yesterday was my birthday. I’m currently in AZ with @sensualsweets777 as I was last year with @god.eternal and @guerino where I got to eat Sugar as my cake 🍰✨ we were going to do a repeat of last year but better- but to be quite frank I have been processing so much grief we had to postpone for a few more days as I spent all of yesterday just, crying and trying to make it through the day. I miss my cat Gidget and I miss @god.eternal too. My only wish this year can’t come true so I didn’t blow out the candle on my cupcake anyway, she did. And I was already sobbing when they came in to sing me happy birthday. In a way the universe partially gave me what I wanted and @god.eternal came to me briefly in my dreams last night.
Needless to say I didn’t get around to decorating Sugar and eating her last night, but I will once I can pull myself together more. I’m attempting to honor those of you who are left here, so I’m attempting today to at least start the process of releasing any previous photos and sets or content I had previously recorded before Gidget and my God’s leaving of this realm to continue to guide me and watch over me in the next paradise and within the Universal energy which I believe never dies.
Thank you all for supporting and honoring me during this time. I wish I could record something for you, even just a testimonial telling you where I am at but I’m too much of a mess. I’m still here and breathing though, and I still see so much beauty and connection in this life, so thank you all for sharing in that with me and connecting with me through my art, content creation, fuckery and all else. The light in me sees and honors the light in you. The perv in me too 😉
So thank you. I may not be active or reaching out but that does not mean I am not thinking of you all. I yearn to have capacity to create again. ❤️🩹