(My brother and I)
I spent so much energy studying how to be..
Published: April 7th 2022, 2:10:24 am
(My brother and I)
I spent so much energy studying how to be anyone but me. I just wanted to be “normal” so badly. But wanting that didn’t prevent me from failing at it. I was so awkward. I begged to blend in, to take away the things that made me feel like I didn’t belong…if you have to ask me why I’m “so different” or why I “have to rebel”, it’s because of you.
Because of those questions. You see me and ask why I live in such a vulgar way, and it’s true, to you, my life is obscene. But please don’t flatter yourself, the credit to my obscenity isn’t you. I credit all the painful things I did to keep you from having to see me to you. This was what I was trying to hide. To avoid questions like those. Im not rebelling against you. I’m just rallying behind myself.
