DONT TALK ABOUT IT Pt.1 Yesterday was a special day for me, ..
Published: April 2nd 2022, 3:23:13 pm
DONT TALK ABOUT IT Pt.1 Yesterday was a special day for me, normally I’d love to elaborate and basically over share until the point everyone involved hates me, but after talking about it, for the time being I’m just going to practice limiting my sharing to things only involving myself.
I’ll find creative ways to skirt this because I do enjoy a challenge but I won’t be sharing things like, we had sex for the first time. You’re not gonna read me post about how the night took a turn. I won’t riddle you with “you’d never know by looking”.
I was asked a question recently I'm not unfamiliar with, but instead of giving myself the answer, I made myself work for it. I was asked, “Why do you have to share? What does it serve to be so public about it?” And I really started to ask myself what are my reasons for feeling so compelled to be so transparent.
I don’t know if any of these are the real reasons I do it: but I feel like I’m alone a lot. Even when I’m surrounded by people. And often times I feel like none of my story mattered. But sharing it publicly I hope that even after I’m gone maybe I could have meant something. I feel like I’m so different I don’t feel like I belong here but the thought of living my truth hiding any uncomfortable parts of me you've been taught you should avert your gaze to just wasn’t a realistic healthy way for me to live authentically.
There’s really so much more to this post maybe I’ll do a part 2 I need to hit send before OF have some issue and logs me out in the middle of my post for the 287th time.
TLDR: I went to the bathhouse last night here’s a couple pics of me getting warmed up.
