Published: September 11th 2025, 11:34:32 pm
Vulnerable share…
I’ve been a little MIA lately, sharing less content than usual.
My 24-hour Las Vegas layover didn’t go as planned—my STD test got lost in the mail, which meant I missed a major collaboration. (Hoping to reschedule that soon!)
Then I headed to LA to create content with another big creator, but that got postponed too.
I also had a photoshoot, but the photos didn't turn out in a way that I liked or portrayed me in a way that I want published on the internet indefinitely.
Since all of that was a bust, I had some content from a previous collaboration I wanted to share, but ended up in a discussion with that creator that revealed some political/moral stances I find completely abhorrent. I knew I didn’t want to be connected to him or his brand, and thankfully, he agreed not to share the content as long as I didn’t.
I felt wildly disheartened because all the cost of the travel and STD tests, all the time and energy felt like an absolute waste…
On top of all that, I received some painful communication from my family, which led to a denouncement of my sexuality, beliefs, and who I am. This has created a seemingly irreparable divide between me and most of my family.
So, I’ve been a bit withdrawn. My sexuality has taken a backseat as I’ve sought solace in nature, dear friends, and some much-needed self-care.
I just arrived in New Mexico to visit one of my favorite humans and will be heading into the hills to camp and soak in some hot springs—very much looking forward to disconnecting.
But don’t worry—y’all know me. I’ll be back on the horse soon; I can’t stay away from good dick for long. 😉
I’m new to balancing life’s heartaches with a career that leans on my sexuality, and lately, I’ve felt deeply—but not deeply sexual.
That said, I’m editing a fun full-length video today and will try to drop it tomorrow or Saturday (once I get final approval!). My usual shenanigans will resume shortly, but in the meantime, I wanted to give you an honest look at the BTS of what I’ve been up to/will be up to this weekend.
Thank you for your patience and support—it means the world. 💖