Published: May 15th 2025, 1:53:49 pm
Hiiiii I hate to be a buzz k1ll lol but due to a comment I got on my IG I just want to re-remind everyone that right now I am posting when I can and want to post more while I cam and stuff, but due to my mental health I am again still not ready to get to customs and ready handle DMs and speaking to new strangers. I once again I will make it aware when I work through the thing that is making this happen to me.and I have SO many DMs that it’s a lot to get back to. I appreciate all the people who do understand and have been supportive and kind🖤 it really means the world to me and I apologize for any inconvenience. I just have a lot in my plate mentally. I am a caregiver as well and that takes up a huge chunk of my day/drains me a lot energetically and emotionally that by the time I cam, some days I just don’t have it in me to mentally go online and I just call it a day and go to sleep. In fact today might be one of those days 😩have a very specific time frame that I can cam due to the fact that I don’t live alone and everyone awake. And by time I finish cam I’m drained Socially 😅 I’m someone who only likes to do OF and cam when I’m in the proper headspace where I’m horny and feeling good ya know 😅😅 if I ever feel depressed or low energy and drained, I take that time to recharge. And I haven’t even spoken to my closest friends in days almost a week lol and when I do I send one or two messages max that day. So it’s not personal, but so you can understand what I am going thru and why even when I post I may not be responsive to messages. I also had received a crazy triggering message to me on this site in a message and it fucked with me for months and I had to report him. It broke the rules of the site too it was really bad. So in combination with that and everything else I’m going thru mentally and unmedicated af (🤣) yeah I’m just not ready to get to customs and messages at this moment in time and I will in the future when I feel ready. Personally I know girls who get like this and hire managers and I don’t like that. I don’t want some random person that you don’t know responding and handling my page. If you message me I want you to know it’s me who’s responding🖤 and if it’s a con for me because customs are helpful and I lose out on that, so be it. But I like being my real authentic self always. I’m also still trying to get back on my feet after I escaped a 5 year abuse/held captive situation where I was trafficked the whole time. I still am not all here and I’ve been working on it. I have so much to get in order it’s crazy I’m stressed with how far behind 😅 Anyways sorry for the novel🤣 I just like to give full transparency. I appreciate everyone who enjoys me and supports me and understands I really do🖤 if you do not want to stay subbed and support me then that’s okay too! I totally understand. For now I’m just posting when I can and having fun with it. And hopefully in the next couple of months I will slowly be able to get back to everyone! Cuz I really do want to Im so sick of trauma and my brain ugh😩 but I can’t wait to feel better and just go back to taking customs like I used to. My mental health just spirals a lot in one day. I may be sexy and fun for like 20 minutes but then it all goes to shit and I shut down 🤣😭 and I feel bad for not being able to get back to everyone including my very close friends but I’ve been too drained 😭😭 caretaking is a whole job in itself 🤣 taking care of my little old lady😅 but anyways I hope everyone has an AMAZING day/weekend :) and again I am so appreciative to those of you who get me and support me 🖤 I can’t wait to get back to people again and back in my zone after a long time needed to heal from a lot of things 🥺🥺 and I left a little video message to end it on a cute heartwarming note🖤 but I’m slowly but surely getting better so just bare with me😅