An Apology: Buckle in this will be a long one, but TLDR life..
Published: December 15th 2022, 10:52:13 pm
An Apology:
Buckle in this will be a long one, but TLDR life sucks, but i wont delete my OnlyFans.
I know I said I would try to make more content this year but its been difficult. And its been for 2 reasons.
1) its my own damn fault. I am a one person team, I am the figure head of the content I make, I model, record and edit all my stuff alone. Only when i do HenTieCake shoots do I work with others. But managing this account I do single handedly. Additionally my other alias Babbling Brook Animations is also a one person team. I get some creative input and voice acting from Jeff my boyfriend. But I run that Youtube channel, I animate everything myself, and manage the business of it. I also have alot of commission art work I do on top of all that.
Im not complaining about the work, I just have VERY bad time management over all these projects and accounts I'm running by myself. I am proud of what I do for my YT animations, what I do on OF and other commission art I do. I fucking love that I can earn an income that way. I just suck at trying to balance it all by myself. So I am sorry for that.
2) And this is where I place some REAL blame. My upstairs neighbor. This fucking woman has really ruined alot of content Ive recorded for OF. I have hours of footage I can't use because of her. She moved in during the pandemic, this bitch had dogs. NOISY dogs. Barking, scratching and zooming around above me, ruining all recording time. And whats worse, I told this woman that I need quiet to record because i am a "content creator" on the internet. The fucking bitch laughed at me. LAUGHED AT ME that i can make this my career. As soon as I told her this, it was like she knew every time I was setting up for recording and would start her vacuum or her blender or have very loud sex with her boyfriend. This was an audio nightmare.
And it got worse. She started hoarding more pets. In her small apartment she crammed in her boyfriend, 3 dogs, 4 cats, a parrot and a small rodent. And guess what fucking happened. Her apt was infested with fleas. And they started trickling down into my apt. Infesting my cat Himbo, even I got bit multiple times destroying my skin.
Landlord stepped in and kicked her out after the smell and unpaid rent back in Sept. The bitch is gone.
And now on to the latest fun news, this last quarter of the year has been financially devastating. Low YT paychecks, lack of commission work and wasting time cleaning my infested apt have not been fun.
The big fucking FUCK U cherry to top of this year was a complete hijacking of my YT animation channel back in 11/30. This emotionally fucking ruined me. All my hardwork gone of 5 yrs just gone for 11 days. No ad-rev collecting. Every waking hours spent talking to google support and waiting. Double checking every account I have, hackers tried to get into my personal fb and my bank account. 11 days of paranoia and fighting to get my shit back and secure. I am not a person who gets angry often, this was the first time in a LOOONG time that I was raging, red in the face and sobbing til it hurt. I fucking HATED this hijacking. I go into some detail about it calmly in my latest video on YT, but behind the scenes ive been so fucking emotional and angry.
This hasn't been the worst year. In fact first half of my 2022 was fucking awesome. I might not have been able to record alot of Babs content, but I was doing well and I was happy. This last quarter of this year has been the worst emotionally and financially for me since I went full time freelancing 5 yrs ago.
I hate asking for money when I didn't make something to earn it, but i could really use a hand this month.
Either tip me here on OF, go binge watch my YT animations with no ad blocker on, buy my animation merch, or send it personally to my $Cash-app: $BabblingBrookB
I do plan on legitimately opening up for commission cosplay video and pics soon, once I can emotionally recover from this. Jan of 2023 will be my bitch, i swear it will be. I just need to survive to get there.
Thank you.