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So this post is gonna be a bit different. As some of you mi..

Published: November 8th 2023, 11:50:26 am

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So this post is gonna be a bit different. As some of you might know, I went to Sydney for a 7 day self discovery and empowering trip, as I needed a break from everything. The longer I have dressed up, the more I have questioned myself and I wanted some answers. Am I a femboy that is gay or am I a transgirl that is straight? I have never been attracted to femininity, I knew I like men at a very youngg age, I admire masculinity. It felt out of place having a relationship with a gay man. I very rarely watch gay porn, I tend to watch straight porn more and imagine myself as the female. I don't get turned on looking at myself in the mirror when I dressed up, but the feeling when I'm being regarded and treated as a girl when I'm dressed up does arouse me. Whenever I undress, take off my make up, I feel a part of me is missing. I want to be a girl all the time. Back in the days where I grew up, it was rather a conservative area with traditional Asian beliefs and culture, I didn't even know anything about transitioning but recalling there were a lot of indicators. I remembered as a kid, I wish I was born a girl, I hated having a penis and being regarded as a boy that should be doing sporty manly things. I liked barbie and dolls, I love to go to the girl section in the toy store, when I see feminine anime characters (like Shun from Saint Seiya and Angewomon from Digimon) I want to be beautiful like them. I hated swimming class and being in the naked in change room with all the other boys because it would remind me that I have the same body as them, but I know I was different. In recent months, I have stepped out of my comfort zone. Actually the fact that I now have a Twitter and Onlyfans is kinda crazy to me but I want to put myself out there to be seen, I don't want to just hide in my bedroom only anymore. I started going out dressed up in public, it was a progress but I went to a clothing store to buy clothes with a mask on, then going out to a nightclub, then going out in bright daylight. In Sydney I have dressed up every single day as Rechelle, walking down the streets, I even went to the beach in bikini. I have never felt so free and liberated, it brings me euphoria being able to express myself. I did get some looks may be, but do I really care? I am proud of who I am. I've also figured that the best way is to understand if I am a trans is to hang out with some trans people. So I have reached out to a few, like Dion and Khloe, and we shared similar thoughts, and Khloe brought me to see a few of her trans friends and they are such an inspiration to me. I still have my doubts and concerns but I think I'm taking the steps to become the person I wanna be. I don't want to be old, looking back and regret that I didn't do something when I had the opportunity to. I don't know how this is gonna go but I'm figuring it out slowly. My next step is to see a psychologist and gender clinic. ***So to all my subscribers, for whatever reason you're here, whether you wanted porn or you like me as a person, I love you and thank you for being here with me. I am glad you see the beauty in me and chose me but transitioning is a long process and it's going to cost a lot of money, so if you want to be on this journey with me, any tips go a long way in helping me achieve my dream.***

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Both boys and girls in my school pointed this out pretty straightforwardly, and even though it felt like it didn't hurt too much in that moment, for many years I've felt very insecure about my body. I was called "flat", "a boy" and even just "stupid-looking" for not having breasts and a curvy waist as a 13 year old!! Sounds incredibly absurd, but all those things got to my head... For a long time I didn't feel feminine at all, and even when my body became like that a lot later, I would hide it in baggy clothes just out of habit and fear. 

But I'm very glad that this mindset is in the past now. Thanks to wonderful people around me who helped me regain my confidence and love for myself, I feel very comfortable in my body and think that it's as beautiful as any other! Remember - beauty is a subjective concept, it is unfortunately forced to all of us by mainstream media, which is designed to influence us in negative ways. Your body is natural, and therefore is beautiful and absolutely normal! No one should ever assure you that there are any actual standards of visual beauty, because in fact everything that matters is how you feel inside it. When you feel beautiful and you know it, people will perceive you like that too! 🌸

I wanna share my confidence with you and inspire to love yourself!! And show you a piece of me for your pleasure ☺️

#cute #teen #babyface #babygirl

When I was a young teenager and the girls in my class started getting their puberty and all the things that came with it, when they got more feminine and curvier, started wearing makeup and looking at boys I was still very child-like. My chest didn't grow like other girls' did, I wasn't interested in romance at all, and all my "masculine", nerdy interests did not help the situation as you would imagine (video games and fantasy worlds' lore were not exactly perceived as a girly thing when I was 13...) Both boys and girls in my school pointed this out pretty straightforwardly, and even though it felt like it didn't hurt too much in that moment, for many years I've felt very insecure about my body. I was called "flat", "a boy" and even just "stupid-looking" for not having breasts and a curvy waist as a 13 year old!! Sounds incredibly absurd, but all those things got to my head... For a long time I didn't feel feminine at all, and even when my body became like that a lot later, I would hide it in baggy clothes just out of habit and fear. But I'm very glad that this mindset is in the past now. Thanks to wonderful people around me who helped me regain my confidence and love for myself, I feel very comfortable in my body and think that it's as beautiful as any other! Remember - beauty is a subjective concept, it is unfortunately forced to all of us by mainstream media, which is designed to influence us in negative ways. Your body is natural, and therefore is beautiful and absolutely normal! No one should ever assure you that there are any actual standards of visual beauty, because in fact everything that matters is how you feel inside it. When you feel beautiful and you know it, people will perceive you like that too! 🌸 I wanna share my confidence with you and inspire to love yourself!! And show you a piece of me for your pleasure ☺️ #cute #teen #babyface #babygirl