zoebytheriver
✨ I ♥️ me and all of my imperfections ✨ I've been in a weird space lately - after my SSD got fucked up, I made a decision to accept what happened (still in progress...) and instead focus my energy hustling like hell to get my content consolidated and organized af again (catch up on the progress I made and finish all the "admin work" I've been trying to get to on my long to do list). "Just hunker down and git her done" as they say - so I can stop existing in a state of feeling like I'm perpetually behind...which I've kind of existed in since I started my OF journey lol. All that to say, that has ultimately meant spending entire days working without making time to climb or do much else for the past few weeks +. I've been productive as fuck, but everything just takes tiiime. And time seems to fly by faster and faster. Anywho, I haven't been making time for self care and I've definitely been feeling (and seeing) it in my mental health and body....and I haven't been the most kind to myself about it tbh. I haven't been giving myself as much grace as I deserve. So I'm trying to change the narrative in my head. Life is a roller coaster - existing and loving yourself in the present are the only things you can control. And I fuckin do love myself. I know I'm beautiful af on the inside and out. Any negative thoughts I have are the product of the society I was raised in, not reflective of my value. I am so damn grateful for my health and this life I am building for myself. And I am so proud of myself for who I've become and who I am becoming ♥️ So over the next week or so, Ima keep hustling until I reach a point I feel like I can exist "in the real world" without the weight of all my obligations weighing me down. Freedom. And then I'll get my ass back in training mode to gear up for climbing outside...that'll be a humbling experience lol. But I'm so stoked for it cuz I miss it so much 😭 And then, my journey begins 🦋 I feel like I'm in my lil cocoon on the verge of spreading my wings and flying out on the open road - excit
Published: June 12th 2023, 4:35:48 am
