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LIFE UPDATE some of you might already know from my twt posts (if u dnt follow me u should, i post updates n stuffs) but i have to take a break from filming. i know i have request to fill but i need to be mentally alright to put out the work i want. i hate making you guys wait n im so sorry. i flew out my best friend to visit me at my new home in CO. so ill be taking the weekend to spend the time with her as a mental reset. life has been hectic, im adjusting to a whole new life. my PMDD is kicking my ass n im getting my cycle more frequent with the altitude which doesnt help my pmdd. im not trying to complain i just want yall to understand a little bit of what i have to deal with. with that being said, if you got this far (thank you) im getting back to my messages n will resume filming monday. for those who have been sending me love n support thank u sososos much. you guys keep me grounded <3

Hey lovelies: As many of you have probably noticed, I've dropped essentially completely off the wagon when it comes to visual content. That's due to a lot of reasons I won't bore you with but I wanted to apologize as well as thank you so very much for sticking around. I am stuck, content wise. I'll be completely transparent and I'm struggling with that. I'm not putting out enough content in general (audios or visual content) because I've been working hard on other things that while yes I am getting paid for, I can't share here. In trying to build up my resume in those areas, I've lacked in content here and I'm so sorry. I think I'm reaching a metamorphosis point. I need to rethink where I want to go from here and let go of the things that I've been desperately wanting to work for me and just aren't. It's so hard to admit when things aren't working, especially when I want so badly for them to... but they're not and you're not getting what you deserve. I promise you that I'm working on this behind the scenes because I need a better content/life balance or I'm going to disintegrate. I've been doing this for two years now and I'm past the honeymoon phase of being a content creator which means now I really need to downshift and reconfigure what I'm doing so I can continue doing this while bringing you content you enjoy. I've had a lot of half-launched plans that have only resulted in extreme stress in regards to branding and consistency and it's exhausting to push through. I promise I am working through this so I can approach them with more grace and energy. I want to bring you regularly scheduled content. I want it to inspire you to keep wanting to come back and for that I need to build up content behind the scenes to release on a schedule and that takes time, effort, and planning. Please bear with me. It's extremely hard to me to admit when I'm struggling and the fact that I am having to type this through crying means I'm really struggling but you deserve a response for my silence. I am so grateful

A bit of a vulnerable post, but I have been struggling with my mental health a LOT. And just haven't been filming like I should when I am able. I’m currently on my period, and have some appointments coming up this and next month. I appreciate you being here, and supporting me through my down times. And I PROMISE, I am working on me to be the best for you! Next week I will hopefully have a bunch of new stuff filmed to go up. Thank you again for any and all support it really means the world💜

About the time of the new video and my recent status.