nakedbakers

My dog Max passed away last night. He was my best friend for the last 15 years, and if you ever met him, he quickly became one of your best friends too 💕 As far as losing a pet goes, this was one of the better ways. It happened in the comfort of our living room while he was surrounded by all his favorite people. I held him in my arms as he took his last breath. As expected as it was, it still felt sudden. We had a serious health scare a little over a week ago, and I thought that was the end, but he had fully bounced back from that. He was eating, walking, and generally being his old self. However, last night he woke up from a nap, walked over to me, and just dropped to the floor. I knew what was happening. I picked him up, held him close, and whispered loving words to him. He was truly the best boy. Max had been with me from day one of Nakedbakers. He was always there, just off camera, as my little production assistant. For the first two years while I filmed cooking episodes by myself in my apartment, Max was there keeping me company. I never really made him the focus of any of my content, but if you have been following me for a while, you have seen him creeping around the background, just being my little shadow. He never liked being too far from me. I honestly don't remember life without him. So much of my time over the last 15 years has been dedicated to taking care of him. My body naturally wakes up every day at 6:30 am to take him out to pee, and this morning was no different. The moment I woke up, the realization hit me, and I just laid there crying. The last few months, he required round-the-clock attention, and I was there to give it. I loved him more than anything, and he needed me more than ever. Not having to take care of him anymore is going to take some getting used to. I always try to find the bright side in a bad situation, and this experience is no different. Losing Max has reminded me of how short life is and how important it is to appreciate the time you have with the people and the anima

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Update! I’m sorry I haven’t been posting, I’m sure it’s confusing for those that don’t follow me on other platforms. The reason I haven’t posted about it here is because I wasn’t able to handle talking about it in a long format. On October 5th my world came to a screeching halt. My dog of almost 8 years Bentley unexpectedly passed away which completely and utterly crushed me. He and I had been through everything together, moving, boyfriends, abuse, a divorce, countless depressive episodes, the list goes on and on. He was the rock to my foundation as a human being. The hole he left was immense. Everywhere I looked and still look he is there. I got his ashes back on the 11th which was such a relief to have him home even in that small capacity. I wouldn’t wish a pet death on anyone it was the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced, that includes my divorce. After a lot of tears, melt downs, not leaving the bed for days at a time, those closest to me pushed me to get another furry friend to help fill the paw size void in my life. This past Sunday I traveled to get him and while he isn’t Bentley he does help me not feel like I’m drowning as much and gives me a distraction from the fact Bentley is no longer here with us. I will always love Bentley I will always remember him, this puppy doesn’t replace him but it does help keep me afloat. I’ve never been without a dog every since I was 4 years old. It was a very hard decision to make but I’m glad I did and my support system pushed me to make this choice. I will be returning to posting today and answering DMs. Thank you so much for your understanding, it feels nice to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel. Bentley 🖤 1/10/15 - 10/5/23 🕊️

I’m so sorry I haven’t been active or answering, I just have..