Update!
I’m sorry I haven’t been posting, I’m sure it’s confusing for those that don’t follow me on other platforms. The reason I haven’t posted about it here is because I wasn’t able to handle talking about it in a long format.
On October 5th my world came to a screeching halt. My dog of almost 8 years Bentley unexpectedly passed away which completely and utterly crushed me. He and I had been through everything together, moving, boyfriends, abuse, a divorce, countless depressive episodes, the list goes on and on. He was the rock to my foundation as a human being. The hole he left was immense. Everywhere I looked and still look he is there. I got his ashes back on the 11th which was such a relief to have him home even in that small capacity. I wouldn’t wish a pet death on anyone it was the most painful thing I’ve ever experienced, that includes my divorce. After a lot of tears, melt downs, not leaving the bed for days at a time, those closest to me pushed me to get another furry friend to help fill the paw size void in my life. This past Sunday I traveled to get him and while he isn’t Bentley he does help me not feel like I’m drowning as much and gives me a distraction from the fact Bentley is no longer here with us.
I will always love Bentley I will always remember him, this puppy doesn’t replace him but it does help keep me afloat. I’ve never been without a dog every since I was 4 years old. It was a very hard decision to make but I’m glad I did and my support system pushed me to make this choice.
I will be returning to posting today and answering DMs. Thank you so much for your understanding, it feels nice to see the light at the end of this dark tunnel.
Bentley 🖤 1/10/15 - 10/5/23 🕊️
