3.16.21 - It’s always been a challenge for me to communicate my needs and desires clearly. When Chris and I were talking about BDSM I struggled to articulate exactly what I want to try. It was easier for me to explain how I want to feel, which didn’t give him a lot to go on. So in order to help us he requested that I watch some bdsm porn and look for things I would like to do. To pick out some specifics from the videos.
This feels like the most vulnerable video for me to post and the only one that I’ve second guessed. Given the shame I was taught around masturbation, to share a video of myself watching porn, masturbating, and trying a new toy feels really personal. Learning about myself and being open helps me know myself better and strengthens my connection with Chris. I would never wish sexual shame on anyone. I’m lucky to have Chris supporting me. As I continue to break through my shame, I’m glad that I can use it to help you overcome yours as well.
3.16.21 - It’s always been a challenge for me to communicate my needs and desires clearly. When Chris and I were talking about BDSM I struggled to articulate exactly what I want to try. It was easier for me to explain how I want to feel, which didn’t give him a lot to go on. So in order to help us he requested that I watch some bdsm porn and look for things I would like to do. To pick out some specifics from the videos.
This feels like the most vulnerable video for me to post and the only one that I’ve second guessed. Given the shame I was taught around masturbation, to share a video of myself watching porn, masturbating, and trying a new toy feels really personal. Learning about myself and being open helps me know myself better and strengthens my connection with Chris. I would never wish sexual shame on anyone. I’m lucky to have Chris supporting me. As I continue to break through my shame, I’m glad that I can use it to help you overcome yours as well.